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Rant #32: The 2020 Roundup

TW: I get cussy in this one.

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This year has been fucking hard.

Fuck.

I could probably express it in more eloquent terms but I wasn't ready for what 2020 would become, especially after the 2019 my family and I had. God gave me the strength to make it through, because I wouldn't have thought I had it in me.

Despite all the tragedies, fears and disappointments of 2020 that messed up my head real bad, I somehow managed to keep moving even when I thought I wasn't accomplishing "anything."

That was probably the biggest lesson I've had to learn this year. Patience: with myself, with processes, with other people. Things happen for a reason, especially the things we don't like. There's always something to learn from them. Defeats and disappointments are building blocks to climb higher. (And boy, at the rate I'm going I'll reach the stratosphere pretty dang soon).

A lot of good (even great), things happened this year too—and I'm conflicted about them. While I'm so happy and grateful about them, I also feel guilty. I'm sad that I can't be too happy about them. Like I shouldn't celebrate anything?

Because 2020 fucking sux, man. And I'm bracing for a 2021 just as hard or more, which is also hard AF to deal with.

So, let's officially get my grumpiest roundup underway. Here's what I accomplished in the year of our Lord 2020:

This month was super busy at work and with some unexpected travel I had to do, back when this was relatively not a big deal. Oh, those days.

My mom and sister came to visit me!!! We were so happy!!! So I dedicated all my time to them!!! I miss them!!!