recollision ~ ymir x historia

5: weakness pt. 2

darling when i'm fast asleep
i've seen this person watching me

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the girl was tiny and frail, looking like a puppy who had been kicked. she sat on her knees. scars and blemishes dotted her body anywhere you looked. a ring of dark bruises encircled her neck and wrists. she even had a dark bruised eye that complemented her pail sickly face. there were viable tear carved onto her face like battle scars.

she coughed and even that small movement caused her body to collapse onto the ground. when she coughed locks of dull blonde hair fell in front of her face.

there was no way

it was impossible

historia...

the girl had to be her. the more i looked the more unmistakable she became. though faded, her hair colour was unmistakable. when she looked around her eyes were as blue as the clear sky on a cloud-less day.

my heart shattered

what the hell happened to her.

people committing suicide often claim their bodies move on their own, causing them to stop what they are attempting. their brain rewiring their nerves. i moved without thinking. i rushed over to historia each footstep on the dirt creating an echo drowning out the commotion around me. the only sound i heard was my heart beating and the only thing i saw was historia just less than yards away from me.

we collided

recollision

i wrapped her in the warmest embrace tears flooding to my eyes. i had never been an emotional person but the feelings i felt were so raw and uncontainable i couldn't hide them away inside. tears rolled down my face, clouding my eyes. i squeezed historia tight, but she didn't embrace me back.

i looked down at her to see her once bright blue eyes glossed over and grey. she was looking into the distance. she barely let out a sniffle before going limp in my arms.

i don't remember anything after that i think i must have blacked out again. people rushed all around us, tearing us apart.

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i awoke on a soft bed. i sat up to see hange watching tv a few feet away from me. then i remembered it all again. like when i first arrived pictures flashed through my brain. i saw historia limp
in my arms. i saw her lifeless eyes and i felt a gripping pain in my chest. a pain i had never experienced before.

before i knew it i was out of the bed shaking hange and demanding that she take me to historia but before she could respond i heard a knock from a door a few rooms away from us all.

letting go of hange i stumbled to the sound of the knocking. my wobbly feet seemed to drag me down but my raw will powered through.

eventually i was met with a large oak door. throwing the door open i was met with the one and only erwin smith. he scanned me with his calculating eyes and his nose twitched. his long blonde hair draped over his face like a magnificent curtain and he still had his air of authority.

" well i was just about to escort you away, seems you quite exited "

my heart sank, someone i had convinced myself that when i opened the large wooden door historia would be standing there with her trademark sparkle and a gleam in her arms. we would run away and live the life we were never given.

" we'll do you want to go see her or no? the moment she woke up all she would talk about was you "

he didn't even have to say her name. before i knew it me and erwin were off towards a place he called the medical center.