recollision ~ ymir x historia

9: cupid's chokehold

he's singing,

she's a, she's a lady, and i am just a boy

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i loved her so much and it hurt. it hurt like a dull sting in my chest. my heart ached for her. and when she told me everything, a part of me was lost in her pain. all i ever wanted to do was protect her and i failed at that. she deserved none of the pain she suffered through.

historia was curled up in my lap, softly crying into my chest. i couldn't even imagine the courage it took to tell me everything. just laying here with her was heaven. i wish i could pause time and sit here forever. i would've never imagined caring about someone so much and in this way. i pat her on the back and she looked up at me. " ymir... would you mind leaving for a bit? i need a second to gather up my feelings. " she whispered. i obliged and stood up to leave the room. just as i had turned around i heard a russle behind me.

"ymir... i-i- i- " historia struggled to finish her sentence. she had somehow crawled out of her bed and was standing bathed in the light the doorway provided. she was so beautiful. my voice caught in my throat. i'm not sure why i did what i did next, i suppose it was just instinct- i turned around and walked right out the door.

confrontation scares me.

i gently shut the door behind me and made my way down the depressing corridor. erwin had informed me to meet him back at the building he had taken me from. i started to walk back when i realized how dead the path was. of course some areas of the afterlife were dense and busy but i just happened to be in an area where my best company was my thoughts. all i could think of was historia. she was just so perfect and amazing while i was a mistake that lived a life of lies. i was not worthy for her. i was a commoner in the shadow of royalty.

eventually i reached the building. i noticed now that it resembled an apartment complex. vines of ivy slinked around the sides of the house and flowers sprung from cracks and holes scattered around the exterior. it was nowhere near a palace but it was comfy and felt welcoming. i knocked on the door and erwin responded.

a/n: sorry that chapter was so short! next chapter will
be super long 😏 some very important things are going to happen in the next few chapters dw! i think i'm going with 10 chapters + an epilogue! thanks for the support and happy new years! hopefully 2021 won't be as much of a disaster as 2020 !!