recollision ~ ymir x historia

10: line without a hook

he's singing; she's a- she's a lady- and i am just a
line without a hook

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erwin opened the door and looked down at me. " how was historia? " his smile faded, " what happened to her, if she told you?"

i was quiet for a few moment and then i responded," she.. she's been through a lot, and it's not my business to tell everyone about it until she's ready. it's a very personal thing and i think it's too early to pressure her with anything " i said (probably a bit too forcefully)

" well aren't you a protective girlfriend! " he exclaimed trying to embarrass me.

i felt my face heat up and my heart beat faster, we were not girlfriends- we were close friends at most and historia would never trust me if she knew i thought of her that way.

erwin must have noticed my expression. " you guys aren't dating? everyone always noticed how you two looked at each other! i think you should say something to her! it's not like you have anything better to do- " he chuckled. hange interrupted him by placing a hand on his shoulder. " well there is something we should tell you about " they said. erwin's face darkened. " erwin will you do the honors? " they said grimly.

" i need to talk to you about reincarnation. " erwin said slowly. the tension between the three of us was so thick it could be cut with a knife. " reincarnation " i said questioningly. " yes reincarnation, every 25 years we are given the option to reincarnate as a baby into the world below, i'm sorry i didn't tell you sooner, the man who held this information only recently told me and hange. i'm surprised you never questioned the lack of spirits up here. "

" wow that's just- amazing? " i responded. i'm not sure what i would do. it would be nice to stay up here in peace but it would be empty if sasha and marco transferred. and what about historia? what would she want to do? we would be separated again without me ever telling her how i felt. erwin interrupted my train of thought, " the ceremony will be at 10am tomorrow, i know it's already 5pm and once again i'm so sorry i couldn't tell you sooner. i'm not sure if this will influence your decision or not, but i've already talked to a few people and all of the deceased scouts, including sasha, marco, hange, and me, will be reincarnating ".

i knew what i had to do.

i turned to walk out of the doorway and just as i was leaving i heard erwin say " historia was just released from the hospital ".

daylight was fading, rich hues of purple and pink danced across the sky. everyone was settling into their beds and i was running to the hospital at record speed. my legs ached and my head hurt, too many things were happening and it was too much for me understand. once again i felt weak and useless. i mentally cursed myself for failing again, but continued running. if i failed at everything else, i would push my body to get me to that hospital. but nevertheless i felt my vision blur. i fell down onto the ground. i dipped in and out of consciousness. i was out cold.

i felt a familiar hand pull me up. once again she was pulling me out of my despair, giving me a new reason to live and a life to live for.

historia was looking down at me with kind eyes. even in the fading light i could tell she was just as gorgeous as ever, and her bruises were nowhere near as visible.

" historia! i was looking for you! " i couldn't take my eyes off of her, she was a bright beacon of hope during this dark evening and during my life. her silky blonde hair blew in the wind and she looked down at me with a small smirk on her face.

" i need to tell you something "
historia just looked at me calmly, preparing for what i had to say. " do you want to go inside? it's getting dark. " she said suddenly. i'm not sure if it was the hue of the violet sky above us but she seemed to have a red face. " please historia, it's important i need to tell you this right now ". my heart was beating frantically at this point. my headache had come back from when i was running and i was sweating like crazy. i'm sure i looked insane. honestly, i'm not sure how i said it.

"historia, i have loved you since the moment we met. you don't have to feel the same way but it hurts me to not tell you. i love you so fucking much. i love the way you laugh, i love the way you smile, i love the way you always look out for everyone, i love how you keep going when it gets tough, and i love every little thing about you. i'm going to reincarnate tomorrow and i needed to tell you. you probably don't feel the same way about me but-"

i was cut off by the feeling of her lips of my mouth. it shot a burst of electricity through me and i don't think i've ever felt happier. i pulled away out of surprise.

"ymir, i love you too. i just never thought you felt the same way. i killed myself because i missed you too much. i don't know what i would've done if you weren't here for me".

"yeah me neither, i guess we were just made for each other weren't we? we saved each other."

the sky was full of stars and constellations, galaxies reaching as far as the eye could see. the moon glowed down on everything and in the moon's light were two girls, bound by fate and love, laying together under the stars. they may not know what was happening next, but as long as they had each other they wouldn't worry. they didn't have much time left, but together they had everything. ymir and historia had been separated by the world, their story was a tragedy, forced to suffer and die. in the end they had each other.

recollision.

Baby, I am a wreck when I'm without you
I need you here to stay
I broke all my bones that day I found you
Crying at the lake
Was it something I said to make you feel like you're a burden, oh
And if I could take it all back
I swear that I would pull you from the tide
Darling, when I'm fast asleep
I've seen this person watching me
Saying, "Is it worth it? Is it worth it? Tell me, is it worth it?" Oh
Guess there is something, and there is nothing
There is nothing in between
And in my eyes, there is a tiny dancer
Watching over me, he's singing
"She's a, she's a lady, and I am just a boy"
He's singing, "She's a, she's a lady, and I am just a line without a hook"

line without a hook- ricky montgomery

a/n: THANK YOU GUYS SO MUCH!! yes i will be writing an epilogue. i hope my 48 viewers enjoyed this little short story. i loved writing it !! <3

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