Jōnetsu | A Shera Fanfic (Catra x Reader)

Legacies | (Kagami)

"What are you?" The question is echoing in my mind and I cringe, snatching my wrist away from Catra and turning around. The words themselves feel as if they are piercing every vein in my body and truthfully, I'm hurt that she would even think to ask me that. Sure, she was curious but does she have to be so fucking mean? 

It takes a moment before I'm able to answer her but even then I still can't face her. Something about the words she chose and the way she said it makes me feel so bad about myself that I really rather just crawl into a hole and stay there until I die instead of telling her who I am. 

"Fine," I say emotionless, "Since you want to know the whole sad ass story that bad, listen up," I say to her angrily still not facing her. At this point, between the hurt and anger coursing through my body and the magic, it's taking me to even be in this stupid spell, I feel weak enough to the point where I think sitting would be best. I sit down with my back turned towards her and I find myself staring at the same waterfall from earlier. I continue staring at the water watching how calmly and freely it flows and I decide I'll be the same, as carefree and wild as the water before me. Even though I'm not facing her, I can hear Catra sit down beside me but it doesn't feel like she's facing me though. I take a deep breath and slowly start to turn. Like I thought, Catra is facing forward looking off into the distance. I can tell she regrets what she said to me but can't figure out how to apologize. So I unspokenly forgive her by turning my body towards her and staring at her until she does the same. 

"You know," Catra says trying to be gentle towards me, "You really don't have to tell me" she finishes. "I know, but I want to --" I pause, "I need to" I declare allowing the hurt Catra caused to seep out into my voice. I don't know if it's because she feels sorry for me or if it's because she actually likes me but Catra reaches out to touch my shoulder lightly and then letting her hand slip slowly down my arm making her way to my hand. Catra takes it upon herself to interlock our fingers and then looks at me and I look at her. I can't help it, the touch, this moment, the way her eyes are filling with love, it just all makes me feel... happy. I smile and take a deep breath; "Okay," I say confidently, "I'm ready" I state. 

"I can show you better than I can tell you but you have to trust me," I say looking Catra in her eyes. She doesn't say anything but she nods her head in agreement and I grab her by her hands. I take a deep breath and shut my eyes tight knowing that what I'm about to show her is by far my darkest memory.