Will I ever find a home?

arguments and lessons

Meanwhile down stairs. ( Logan's pov)

I led Johnny to the quiet room, and I could tell that something was wrong. I just didn't know what and my mind was blank after everything that had happened today. We went into the room and I closed the door behind him before sitting down across from him at the table at the side of the room. " so Johnny, what's up, is there something I can help you with"? I asked him confused, rubbing my temple as it began to hurt. "yea there is something you can help me with, staying away from Hope, you will meet that family and then as soon as you can you will leave with them. And no more going in the bathroom to do whatever it is you do to her, she is too young for you to be messing around with her head or her body". Johnny nearly shouted at me. ''if i do meet my sister and her new family tomorrow i won't be rushing to leave because funny enough i am not going anywhere until i know that Hope will be OK, because you haven't seen what i have seen, you don't know what i know, and i am not messing around with her head or her body, funny enough i am not like those men that took you". I shouted back just wanting to tell him to tell everyone that I love her with all my heart. ''if you weren't messing around with her body then what were you both doing in the bathroom together and when did you both get changed". He screamed at me, his fits scrunching obviously ready to punch me. I could hear whispers and footsteps outside which meant someone was listening into our conversation. '' I was helping her because funny enough she needs help because of her wheelchair and knee brace.. I have been helping her for months and I am the only one that knows about what the doctors told her after you left, what she will never have and she hates herself for it". I scream at him, tears threatening to spill. "Why are you obsessed with her then if you aren't messing her up". Johnny asks me furiously. " because i love her you dumb ass, OK she is my world all i have left to live for''. I told him sobbing. I was about to turn around and run from the room when I felt a fist hit my face hard and I felt myself and I landed backwards with a bang and I heard loads of shouting before everything went black.

Johnny's pov:

I swing my fist and punch him as hard as i can, i was so furious with him after him saying he loved Hope. I don't know why I am so angry. I should be happy for my sister. I guess that I am just worried that I will lose her when I get her back. Everyone barges into the room because of all the noise and I am taken away from everything by Carmen and out into the office and locked in. I feel so bad and I know that hope will probably hate me now. I wish I could go back in time. I hear worried voices walking past the office obviously heading towards the dining room. I heard someone walking closer and closer to the office and I turned to face the window with my back to the door. The door creaked open and Mike stepped through the door. " Johnny, what happened, why did you hit Logan?"Mike asked as he stood behind me putting a comforting hand on my shoulder. "I was scared that he would take Hope away so I told him to leave with his sisters tomorrow and stop contact with Hope so that he couldn't take her away. And when he told me the truth about how he knows more about what those men did to her than the rest of us I snapped and punched him". I told him a tear running down my cheek. " Johnny , I know that you just got her back and you are worried but doing something like that could lose her. She loves you. She begged me and Carmen to hunt you down for heaven's sake but her and Logan have this unbreakable bond that you can't take away, and you need to understand this". Mike said turning me round and getting eye level with me. " i understand mike, does this mean that i am getting kicked out". I asked him wiping away my tears. " no kiddo it doesn't, but you do owe Logan an explanation and you will need to apologize to him tomorrow, because he woke up but he is resting in the spare staff room". Mike told me softly I nodded at him carefully. Suddenly I heard one of the alarms going off and I jumped. " whats going on"? I asked terrified. " Hope needs help transferring. I will be right back" was all Mike said before he left the room and I was alone with my thoughts again. I should never of hit him , hope will hate me. But what was he meaning about knowing more, what did those men do to her that me and the girls don't know about. And what will she never have. Does she love him back, i guess i hope that she does but at the same time i hope that she doesn't ,so that she doesn't leave me.

Logan pov;

I was sitting in the spare staff bed, when Christina and Erica walked in. "Logan what happened". Erica asked, seeing my black eye and cuts on my lip and across my eyebrow and eye. "Johnny punched me". I said touching my lip then wincing. "Why". Christensen asked. "We had an argument about hope, well ,me and Hopes relation ship, he caught me and hope coming out of the bathroom together in new cloths". I confessed wiping blood from my mouth. "Wait why did you get changed together". Erica asked confused. "Because hope cant do it because of her brace chair and other complications and i am the only one she lets help her". I explained to the girls. "Did you tell johnny that"? Christina asked, worried. "Yep, he then told me to leave with my sisters and lose all contact with hope, when i told him no and why he freaked and, i told him that i loved her and he punched me". I confessed looking down. "You really love her". Christensen said looking at him softly. "You are oblivious, teia, the both look at each other with such love and compassion, they have for ages now". Erica told her best friend giggling. "She likes me back"?. I asked socked. "Yes, i am surprised you didn't see, well all three of you are as oblivious as bricks". Erica chuckled. She loves me, was all i thought about, i didn't even realize that Carmen called the girls for lunch. I just lay there smiling. The girl that i am in love with loves me as well.