Will I ever find a home?

the past I will never get rid of.

15 that is the number that will stay with me forever just like the terrifying tale that comes with it. 15 That means that there were 15 people before me and I know everyone of them, well except for zero since they were shot dead the day I arrived . She was trying to protect me and the others. There were also numbers 16 and 17 that were christeena and erica. And now I completely emerged in my thoughts that I couldn't hear or see the world going on around me. Let's start from the beginning. me, Erica, and Chestina were all out on a walk in our favorite part of the woods when we were grabbed by a group of men and flung into the back of a black van and drove to this housel. Then we were flung into a room filled with 15 other children and still remember the fear in all of their eyes. As the tallest man aimed his gun at the youngest one but the oldest one Zoe jumped in front of her and she bled to death within 5 minutes.but after that it was just sixteen of us left, they said that they had to kill one of us because there were too many of us. After Zoey it was Riley and she was 17. Then it was Lucy who hadn't long turned 17 when we arrived. Then it was pepper and rose who are both sixteen, then there were the two brothers allester and jacobe allester was 17 and jacob was 15. Then it was the triplets Chloe, Brook and Cameron who are all 14. Then it was Erica and Christeena who were both eliven. Then it was me and I was 10 at the time. Then it was Cody. He had just turned 9 the day after I arrived. Then it was Cody's younger sister Elizabeth or as we called her Lizzy and she was 5 at the time. Then finally it was little Lacey who was two when Christina and Erica arrived.

I remember the first place that we were held and what the room was like, it was a large room in the cellar and there were no windows or doors to escape except the door that only opens on the other side. The room was in the cellar of one of the men's houses. The room was so plain it could drive you insane, the walls were a cream yellow and the ceiling was plain weight. It was so plain it could drive you insane. I had a couple of pens and pencils in my pocket so we used them to write our names. The day we all arrived we even did a memorial for zoe. We wrote quotes, drew pictures and wrote stories until all of the walls had been covered. It still didn't feel like a home but at least it felt like a place where we knew we were not alone. We weren't tied up or anything and we would get 3 meals a day. We were trapped until one day when i was leaning against what i thought was a bookshelf on the other side when suddenly it swung open and it revealed what was probably the other half of the cellar. There wasn't anyone home for what we could tell because there wasn't a sound in the entire house. We all climbed through the gap and up the stairs into the main part of the house. We managed to quickly run to the front door but we were caught broody and westan managed to escape and they promised to get help but the rest of us were trapped. They had guns pointed at us. It was utterly terrifying. We were returned to the basement and then the next morning we were moved to a new destination and help did arrive but they were too late and we were already gone.

We got to the next house that we were kept in and we were all severely battered and starved and we were all weak. Lacy was the worst. She was getting sick, being so young and starving. I took extra beattings when we arrived at the new house so that they wouldn't hurt the others again and so that they couldn't hurt the little ones. I made a deal with them that they would beat me instead of the two little ones.so when we arrived at the new place i was taken into a different room and was beaten and starved for two weeks with one portion of dry bread and water once a day.by the time i was thrown into the room with the others i was so weak they had to carry me. Luckily on my way back I was able to grab a couple of items including a lighter, a pair of scissors, a roll of ribbon and a screwdriver. I was flung into the room and the minut i hit the floor I had to hold my breath to try and stop myself from crying out in pain. The others rushed towards me and riley carefully picked me up in her arms carefully trying not to hurt me, she held me close to her singing me a a song as the others tried to clean up my cuts and put supports on my leg because in the room there were bandages and some other medical equipment such as plasters and wipes. I almost screamed in pain as one of the boys tried to clean a cut on my ribs. I handed one of the girls the items that I had stolen. They made bracelets for everyone out of the ribbons and clips. Alister carefully slid mine round my wrist but seft it lose.before they carefully moved me to the other side of the room so that i could sleep. It was difficult to sleep though because my leg was obfusialy broken saying how it was in the most odd position I have ever seen and I also couldn't feel from my knee down. We were still in this destination two weeks later and we decided to plan another escape. This time it would be Alistair Jacob and lucy. We started planning that we would do it at 5am when the light was just starting to come out. We waited three days and then we all went to sleep early except me . I couldn't sleep. I was in too much pain to sleep. Then suddenly I saw the sun start to rise and I woke up cody, who woke the others up. Cody carefully unscrewed the fan and boosted the others up to the fan after everyone had said goodbye.i held the little ones next to me as they were starting to get scared. "It's going to be ok girls I promise". I whispered to them softly.we were there for two more weeks before the men realised that there were three of us missing. They promised that they would send help and they did but they were too late the police were just pulling up as we drove out of the street in our blue van. The next destination was an old warehouse and there were 3 other kids already there, two young girls and an older boy. The little ones were clinging onto the older boy.we were all flung to the floor before the men left again. Christeena and Erica tried to help me stand up but I just screamed in pain then fell to the floor again before riely picked me up and carried me over to the other side of the room. " what's your name". Riley asked the boy as she lay me down. "I'm jonny and they are tee and hetty". The older boy said as he pointed to a blond haired and grey eyed little girl and the second girl had bright red fiery hair and hazel eyes with a glint of mischief in them. " Well I'm Riley, and these are Hope, Lacy, Lizzy, Cody, Erica, Christeena, Pieper, Rose, Carmen, Brook, chloe. " so when did you three arrive here"? Erica asked Jonny nervously. "They grabed us from a local park near our house, they grabed tee first being the smalest in size then I hid hetty behind a bosh not realising the other man was behind a tree. Everyone else in the park had ran off so there was no one around to help so my automatic response was to save my sisters and get us all home safe, but the man behind the tree had grabbed hetty and she was so scared she couldn't even fight back like she normally would if someone had grabbed or touched her. I tried to shout at them to leave us alone ant that we wouldn't tell anyone what happened, but someone grabbed me from behind and they held a gun to my head as the other men did the same to my sisters and told me if i said one more word or tryed to shout or scream they would kill us all so i kept quiet. They shoved us into this black bmw suv car and they brought us here and tattooed these numbers on to us.'' Johnny told us nervously. "Ok well I don't think that any of us actually know how long we have been here because we have no way of knowing anymore.johnny explained to us with slightly more confidence. "Johnny, I'm sorry that you have been here that long".erica said softly. " could you please tell me what these numbers mean". Johnny asked kindly but worriedly. It's the order that we all came in, so I am 15 cause I was the 15th person to come, so you tee and hetty will be 18, 19 and 20.riely explained to johnny. " Well tea is 18, i am 19 and hetty is 20". Johnny replied softly " wait a second , there aren't 17 of you so how can it be such a high number". Johnny asked worriedly

" A few of us have been able to escape and they tried to send help but it was always too late, this is our third place that we have been hidden". I said , remembering the friends that I had gained and lost so quickly. The men came later on in the night and gave us our dinner before tying us all up to the walls by ropes and leaving again locking the door behind them. We all just kept hoping and praying that somewhere and somehow we could be rescued. I sat for hours wondering if I would ever see Logan again, if he would ever tell me that he loved me, if Mike would ever be able to tell me and the girls another dad joke. If carmen would ever make us hot chocolate and cookies again. Were they looking for us, did they even miss us or were they happy that we were gone. Does Logan or tegan miss us? Do the other kids even realise that we are missing, will they want us back. Have they found my brother, will he still want me. My mind would never stop running circles around my thoughts. But for some reason everything about Johnny was so familiar, his voice, how he stood and sat, how he treated the girls, he was so similar to my noha. I wonder if he was my brother, have I found my brother at last was the last thought that went through my mind before I drifted into a rest;ess sleep.