The days i lost it all

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AUDREYS POV. ...

Looking at the massive school building in front of me,I took a deep breath in an attempt to calm myself down. I had been getting rude texts since the video leaked out and if my parents hadn't forced me out of the house today, I wouldn't be standing in front of this hell hole right now and honestly I knew I wouldn't be able to hide in my room forever..... I needed out and the baby bump would soon become visible for everyone to know that I am pregnant.

Hisses and whistles and every other nasty sound you could think of was made at me as I walked through the hallway. I held the tears in my eyes, they stung me, threatening to pour out like a torrent of a rain and I just kept saying to myself
You get this drey, big girls don't cry.....

And  this girl needed to cry, to pour it all out but then I've been crying for weeks and nothings changed. I had to stop being a coward and face whatever it was I'm supposed to be facing.

I was searching for Travis,  I guess he must have been worried not hearing from me this past weeks. For one thing I knew I wanted to tell him everything that went on during the party and how I wasn't having sex with that idiot no matter how the video portrayed it and I knew for sure that Travis would believe me.
I walked past everybody not wanting to hear their nasty remarks and catcalls. They were all having sex so why is this a big deal?
Fucking hypocrites!.....

As my eyes rummaged the field,they met with that of Aubreys and before I looked away i realized she was sitting besides Gabrielle and they seemed to be having a good time,  giggling and talking about whatever it was that seemed to be amusing them, maybe talking about me.
I didn't want to cry so I started walking faster, maybe I could catch up with Travis at the library, if he wasn't there, I'll have to check somewhere else.
Maybe he was helping in the schools central hall for our graduation party.

"Hey slut" someone said behind me and i kept walking, I was going to ignore her as much as possible, i knew that voice anywhere and I knew it was Gabrielle in one of her endless missions to destroy whatever dignity was left in me
"U mm. ..hello bitch, I'm talking to you" she said dragging my shoulders so I that I stumbled a little before I'm standing face to face with her. She was spoiling for a fight, maybe a word exchange but I didn't want to do this. I was too drained to do any of this bullshit with her or even anyone else.

"Look who isn't a pretty little virgin anymore" she said chuckling like it was some sort of funny thing to say or something that even deserved laughter
"What do you want?"
"Well,  can't i say hello to a fellow slut, you called me one back then, remember?" She said twirling her hair as she looked at me.
I rolled my eyes... "call me whatever, I really don't like the fact that we're both breathing in the same air right now, and I'll give anything to leave here right now" i stated
"Like your body huh, cause that's all sluts offer. You're a really good actress i must admit, all through the school year, you really had us all fooled, thinking you were the perfect definition of a perfect girl who was soo so innocent.. but I knew better, you were such a judgemental bitch, making everyone think that you were the only good one amongst us, making me feel like I was piece of shit when it was you who is truly shit.
I made her feel like shit, I practically wished for the life she lived, and if was any better mannered, she'll actually be my human idol. I wasn't judgemental so what was she saying?

So maybe this doesn't make you any different from any of us, we all saw the video and sorry,  I'm not sorry but I think I was the one who "accidentally" sent the video across to everybody.

My heart sunk once again,  I should have known all along that she'll never miss out on an opportunity to humiliate me but then I didn't believe she went this far. She could never have even guessed that I was a virgin so I knew it was Aubrey who rattled me out on this one, they seem to be a team, working out and sorting their lifes with me in the middle. I knew she didn't send that video accidentally, it was all planned, I had alot to say to her but all I ended up saying was
"Who's the boy?.. I asked inaudibly cause tears were already forming and my throat seemed to be contracting and I couldn't make words out of them

"I barely know who. It just happened and I might be a bitch but I never had plans for you to get raped.. maybe the universe hates you as much i do too" she shrugged and left me standing there like I was lost
Of course you re.. your life's a mess.

I walked slowly to the library avoiding eye contacts with any of the students in school. I was here for a reason, I simply came to see someone, the one person I believed would make me feel better with just holding my hand, the one person and only person I strongly feel the need to explain myself to.

I got to the library and murmuring words i knew didn't make sense at all to the librarian, I walked towards "our" space at the library, unconsciously it had become a spot for both of us and we held many sentimental discussions here.
As if sensing my presence, he looked my way and I froze on the spot as our eyes met and slowly.. but not without a sign of something in his eyes that I just didn't know what it represents,  he looked away.

I took a deep breath and walked towards where he sat cause maybe he would listen to me
Maybe.... just maybe

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Whewwwww.. I swore i was going to drop this b4 i leave for school. I have major exams coming up and I'm soooo scared
Why aren't you voting and commenting.... just why😢😢
My tender heart can't bear this pain   *wipes imaginary tears*

Anyways, I'm actually happy I've gotten to this point so far and shout out to all 500 and something readers