The days i lost it all

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AUDREYS POV 

I got to the door and realised I had forgotten my purse in Aubreys room so I walked back to go get it when I heard sounds coming from her room, she must be on a call since no one else was home
I moved to open the door when I heard her say.."She's fucking pregnant,  this was not the plan"

The only pregnant  person I knew right now was myself and what plan were they talking about?, who was she talking to?
I lingered by the door, I wanted to hear every single thing.

"This isn't good,she's my bestfriend" she said again
I'm not dumb,I knew immediately  that I was the topic of discussion but who was she talking with?

"I feel guilty, I had to drug her drink, she was a virgin" she said again

It made sense now, I recalled back to that night, I had gotten dizzy only after drinking that tequila.
So she knew all along, she had a plan with someone to get me raped and few minutes ago she was saying it'll be just fine?
She's my bestfriend, how could she?

I opened the door, more like kicked it open. I was angry,I was bitter, I was sad and most of all I was devastated, I couldn't believe she'll do such a thing to me.
"You knew about all of this?" I questioned,my eyes obviously liting up in anger and bitterness

She looked at me quietly, not saying a word and just looking around the room like it suddenly  held a great piece of art.

"It's was you who drugged me, you had plans with someone to take advantage of me, you made sure I came to this party just so you could do this to me, You're meant to be my best friend.  All i ever did was love and care for you, whyyy? Why would you choose to hurt me in the manner?

I was broken and you sat right beside me consoling and telling me it'll be fine and all along, you knew you had a hand in this. How does this make you feel?... you're a fucking monster Aubrey, You're wicked and I must say.. you deserve  an Oscar for acting so well like you didn't know any of these, you got me there girl.

Tears were pushing their way out of my eyes and I didn't even care. I was hurt beyond measures.
I fell to the ground cause I didn't trust my legs to keep me standing for so long.
"Why?. I whispered as I cried the more

"Don't put up an act here lady, I did what I had to cause I needed to get my life together.
Unlike you, you have all your shit sorted out, you don't need to struggle or stress for anything because  your dad already has everything planned out. Newsflash, I don't have a dad and I'll do anything, even if it meant drugging you to get money so I can make my way to college.
This wasn't how things were meant to turn out and I'm sorry but then, there's nothing I can do about this,  can i?
  All along all you ever did was rub your achievements on my face, you had everything under control, all you ever had to bother about was fucking jesus christ and your stupid religion.
You had the best grades, everyone happened to like you even without you trying and I was just living, simply living, walking in the trails that you left behind.
You'll be gone to college in a few months and I'll be here,working my ass off so I can get money to go to college next year. Everything we ever planned, yours always seemed to work out while mine didn't.. You think I'm happy watching you progress without me.
It's just pregnancy, don't make it seem like the end of the world. You should be lucky I didn't get you killed or something."   She spat at me, looking entirely different from the girl I called friend all my life.

I stared at her as she threw me a glare, I dared myself to believe she wasn't saying the truth, she was under the influence of some certain demon or something but you I'm i kidding?.. she already said the words, it was clear i had been living in in a fools paradise, thinking I had a bestfriend, telling her everything.
I wiped my tears, I was no weakling. I needed to breath, to cry out my eyes. This was a double blow. . I had lost my virginity and now my bestfriend... that's if she ever considered me as one.

I ran out of her room, picking up my purse as she kept on glaring at me. To say I was broke  was to say the least, I couldn't tag this feeling in my heart right  now. I have never experienced a heartbreak but I knew it wasn't half compared to what I felt right now.

Have you ever been betrayed by someone who knows your flaws,insecurities. Someone who you have let see all the ugly parts of you that the world would never get access to.
I guess not, you certainly won't understand how horrible i feel right now.
I couldn't place it, I was in shock, the shock of her revelation and finding out she was the one behind all the, I was sad, sad that I was just 17 and life was being such a bitch already
I don't think I want to get to 25... it seems worse from afar.
I was devastated cause I had a child in me and this growing thing inside me would never know his or her father and I would have to cater for this child alone without help.
I was going to become a mum and I didn't even know how I would tell my parents.

My dad would be livid, I'm sure of this. Would he kick me out like he kicked out Avril? No way, I was his little princess.
I was going home, begging once again for a car to lose control  and crush me, crush my heavy heart and my tired soul. Crush me so I can die and then meet God and make him explain why he let all of this happen to me. I've been a good girl, I read my bible, I prayed always and I always trusted him, so why would he sit back and watch this happen to me?. It must seem like some sort of comedy show to him.

I got home and no one was in, I opened the door to my room and slumped on the floor. I didn't want to live anymore, I couldn't take this. No one was real, no one really loved you, maybe  not everybody but at least Aubrey didn't love me. I couldn't take any of this in.
I laid on the ground not being able to stand up and I cursed and swore and prayed and cried.

I did everything a betrayed pregnant girl would do.

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Soooooooooooooo,  I did this😂
waited so long to get this chapter out and here we go. It's my early new year gift to y'all.
Have any of you ever been betrayed by your best friend?... I'll like to know? Drop a comment in the comment section

I dread the day my best friend might betray me...
Voooteee.... pleasee eee