The days i lost it all

13...

I was sitting in Justin room wating for him to come out of the bathroom so I could tell him I had to go somewhere by Friday night. If Justin could speak for me, my parents will certainly let me go.
The door opens and he comes in with this expression I can't read on his face
"What the fuck are you doing here?"
"Sitting down"
"I was in the bathroom"
"I know" I answered looking around the room, looking at anything else but him. If he wasn't my brother,I was definitely going to be his number one fan. Damn! My brother was a chunk of handsome goodness, tall,black eye and a chest so broad, Justin was the ideal guy any girl would fall for.
"What if I came out here in my birthday suit?, huh, you'll be sitted here watching me naked?"
"Well you didnt"
"Go away, I want to dress up"
"I'll close my eyes"
"Are you sick or something?"
"I want to tell you something"
"That can wait, I need to dress up"
"You can do it in the bathroom, I'm not going anywhere"
For a 17 year old, I still had that naughty attitude of an 8 year old child.. I guess those were signed deals that came with being the last child and it worked everytime.
Justin went into the bathroom and was out an hour.. How on earth does a man take so long to dress up like he was some lady in a fashion runway show
"What are you? Barbie? It took you an hour to dress up"
"What are you? My mum?"
"Anyways, I have a daa.... I'm going out in Friday night"
"What for, another of those messed up sleepovers you girls have, teddy bears and sitting in circle talking about boys,pink PJs and popcorn,Rom-com movies and games"

The sweeeet memories, well Justin definitely forgot one thing..Truth or Dare. Now that I think of it, I will never be able to bring myself to going to another sleep over anytime soon, maybe in my lifetime.

"No. I'm going to the cinema" I answered hurriedly, surely he was going to ask me questions like..With who,why,what movies are you watching and all those other questions a 23 year old overprotective brother would ask his 17 year old naïve sister.. Yes I just said naïve.
"With Aubrey?"
"No"
"What other human can stand you?"
"I have friends you know?"
"Half the time,I want to believe you pay those people to stick around with you"
"I'm not a boring loner like you think"
"Your dads puppet, doesn't he say you shouldn't be having friends who aren't Christians or are you suddenly becoming a disobedient daughter?"
"I'm not a puppet, I'm just his favorite child"
"Because he controls you, he makes you do things he wanted to do when he was younger"
"He's protecting me"
"He's using you and please dont ask me to explain that"
"We'll get back to that, will u please help me cook up something to tell mum and dad so I can go out on Friday night?"
"If your not going to the movies with Aubrey, then who are you going with?"
"Travis,the dude that was here the other day"
"Wait a sec, you're going out on Friday night with a boy to the movies, what next?"
"Ill be going to a strip club" I said laughing
"Your dads going to send you to hell straight away" Jusitn answered sharing my amusement
"He'll send me out of the house, just like Avril"
"So you have a date?, is he your boyfriend or something"
"He's the least person to be attracted to me" I answered.. Travis had said the words too often and they had stuck in my head
"Oh well! Your a big girl now, I won't ask questions"
"So will you help me?"
"Help you lie to your parents? Nah.I'll pass, i want to go to heaven too you know"
"Stop it, its not like you'll make it to heaven anyways"
"You sound just like dad right now, basking in self righteousness and acting like he's the only one who loves God"
I felt something inside me snap, I didn't like the fact that I had sounded like my dad, if for anything,my dad was a judgmental person and I didn't want to be compared to him.
In the years to come I'll hate him with a passion, a burning desire to see him waste away in hell and then I'll feel this sudden prick in my conscience, one that seems to say I shouldn't hold anything against him and one that makes me feel like I'm being him even when I dont want to be.
"Sooooo..."
"I have this meet with the boys on Friday,I'll tell mum I'm taking you with me. How does that sound?"
"Would she buy that?"
"She buys everything" he answered and we both laughed..