His Golden Haze Part I

Take My Love And Run

Chapter 2:

Renesmee POV:

I spent the majority grueling of the car ride texting Jacob. We had so much in common and it certainly didn't hurt that we had the same music taste. The more I talked to Jacob, the more I longed to be near him again. It was almost excruciating to be without him and truthfully it made me feel kind of silly. There was no way that it could work out for us even if we tried. Wait, why am I even entertaining the thought of us being together?

Christ, I only talked to the guy once and I'm acting this way. I couldn't possibly talk about this to my family. We could not risk the Volturi coming back again, I would never be foolish enough to suggest something that would warrant that because both my family and I knew they wouldn't be as forgiving this time around. So for now, my contact with Jacob the human will remain a secret until I think they could handle it, which probably will be never or at least until I can sit down with Aunt Alice alone and see if she can see the future of my choices.

We were at the airport, waiting to board the plane. I put in my ear buds and grabbed my phone to put on some Bad Suns. They were so upbeat and full of life, they never failed to make me happy. I thought about Jacob again, and how much he intrigued me. The more I thought about him, the more I got scared about him possibly discovering who my family and I were. I wanted him to be part of our world so bad, part of my world. It's crazy that I invested so much into one guy that I met when getting punch dumped all over my shirt, but at the same time it couldn't have made more sense.

I couldn't get him out of my head, it's like he consumed all of my thoughts. I didn't want this but I couldn't fight it either. The hours I would spend on the plane would be the most dreadful hours for me. I felt Alice tap on my shoulder and I removed and ear bud from my ear to listen to what she had to say.

"It's time to board, Ness. Let's go home." Alice told me as she picked up her bags.

Home. I loved being here in San Diego, but home is where I belonged. With my mom and dad and the rest of my family. I'm sure they missed me and my aunts dearly. I couldn't wait to see them and have a bite of Grandma Esme's lobster ravioli.

My aunts and I boarded the plane and relaxed into my seat waiting for the flight to begin. Rose was by my side sifting through the magazine selections, looking for a magazine that contained wedding dresses and such. Kate was getting married to Garrett in a few months and asked Rosalie to help her plan since she prefered Rosalie's traditional ways rather than Alice's over the top type of style.

Our family were a lot more closer to the Denali's since we moved to Alaska. They really felt like an extended family and I enjoyed staying with them whenever Mom and Dad went on their anniversary vacations to Esme Isle. They spoiled me rotten giving me donated blood that they managed to snag from Grandpa Carlisle.

"What do you think of this one, Ness?" Rosalie asked me, "I want to order three for Kate to choose from."

The one she pointed out to me was a slimming, corset-style wedding gown that had intricate designs around the bust. It was impeccable. It would look beautiful on Kate since she had the curves to pull it off.

"It's lovely, Rose." I grinned as my eyes still glued onto the beautiful gown.

"I thought so too. I think Kate would absolutely love it." Rosalie said confidently, "It totally goes with her vintage themed wedding. She told me she wants to have it over in Thailand of all places."

"Thailand?" I raised an eyebrow and Rosalie shook her head.

"Bride gets what the bride wants." Rosalie shrugged her shoulders, "But could you really imagine Garrett in Thailand? He's more of a London type of guy if you ask me."

A part of me wondered if I would ever get married. A date set for my love and I to celebrate our union. It sounded too good to be true, but every girl at least dreamed of it once in their lives. Unfortunately, I'm not just some ordinary girl. I still belonged in a complicated world that no one could know about and the chances of me finding a love that could last an eternity seemed slim. Then again, my father lived a lifetime without love until he met my mother. The impossible was possible for those two and I hope that I could be as lucky as they are.

There was so many things I want in my life that seemed so unlikely, but there was this shaking feeling in me that there was a chance that I could get what I want. Somehow, someway things were going to work out for me and I won't be alone in my confusing world.

Only time could tell.

Jacob POV:

Could she really handle the crazy world I live in? Shit, who knew I'd imprint at a Vampire Weekend concert of all places. This could get really weird and overwhelming for poor Nessie if she knew the price she paid by meeting me. At the same time, I couldn't fight it and neither could she. I nicknamed her 'Nessie', because I thought it was kinda cute, plus as beautiful as the name Renesmee is, it is kind of a mouthful. Hopefully she wouldn't think I thought of her as the Lochness monster.

With the rare form of love that we have, I know that things will easily get complicated and fast. I can't hide who I am from her, it went against my very nature. Nessie, is so impossibly beautiful it almost hurt to think think of her, from her gorgeous copper hair to those chocolate brown eyes of hers. And her music taste of course.

This imprinting thing could be good for us, I won't have to look at my past with Bella and that damn leech husband of her's. There is no way she isn't a leech herself but I wouldn't know for sure, we haven't spoken since she got married. I know Charlie still speaks with her, but he doesn't really talk about it with me. Guess it was obvious about how I felt.

Those feelings I had for her felt like a thousands lifetimes ago, it was as if I had been born again feeling the love I had for Nessie. Just the thought of her gave me warmest feeling that I couldn't comprehend to save my life. As I sat there all I could think about is when could I see that perfect face again.

As we texted each other she shared with me that she came all the way from Alaska to see Vampire Weekend. She told me she's been there all her life but really enjoyed the different climate that California has. Maybe one day we could live in California together, but that would be far in the future. I could understand how she feels though, the weather at La Push could be quite groggy at times.

"Dude snap out of it! I don't want to end up at the bottom of this freaking canyon!" Paul yelled throwing me out of my trance.

"You're stupid paul just because we're driving on a cliff doesn't mean there is a canyon below." Seth retorted.

"Then what is it smarty?" Paul snickered.

"It's a just freaking cliff god you're dense." Seth exclaimed.

"Looks like it's past someones bedtime.." Embry told the both of them causing the rest of us to crack up.

"Shut up" Seth groaned while everyone laughed at him.

"So Jacob, what's on your mind that has you giving the road googly eyes?" Embry asked me.

Everything is so complicated at this point that I don't want to give them questions I don't have answers to right now so until I can figure it out for myself it's probably best to keep quiet. It will be out whenever we phase anyway I might as well take advantage of my privacy now.

"Nothing" I shrugged "Just tired from today" I said as I continued to try and clear my mind of thoughts of her face and concentrate on making my pants a little looser. It's crazy because it hadn't even been a day since I meet her but I couldn't even imagine going back to my cold lonely bed without her. Just thinking about it is more than I could stomach. This is going to be a long night.