His Golden Haze Part I

Rearview

Chapter 9: Rearview

Renesmee POV:

Dad was way too excited about that reenactment of Sense and Sensibility. Dad is a huge fan of British Lit which is a bit ironic considering that he is American. Grandpa Carlisle was from Britain however, but you couldn’t tell because he lost his accent over the centuries. Mom always told me that it was good to be exposed to different cultures so she took a trip outside of Alaska every summer, I suppose she wanted to learn more too.

I hope once things get more serious with Jake and I, he could join us during our family movie nights. Things were still a little bit weird between him and my family, but it was definitely getting better. Dad even cracked a couple of jokes with him before Jacob left to go back to his hotel. I loved the way things were going in my life and to think it could only get better gave me so much encouragement.

Jacob was leaving to go home and I couldn't help but to be overwhelmed with sadness. The love of my life was leaving me and going home, I knew he wanted to stay longer but his father needed him and he had work to do. He came to my house early this morning, as soon as I saw him, I jumped into his arms. He held onto me tightly and buried his face into my neck and I could tell that he was crying. 

"I love you so much, Jacob Black. Don't you forget it." I choked out as I looked up at him,"I will miss you to no end and I will wait for you."

"Oh Ness." he sighed, "I love you more than anything in this world. I promise to come back to you."

My lips crashed into his and I kissed him with all that I had. I didn't care if my family was around, all that mattered was him at that moment. 

Once I parted from him, Jake wiped away my remaining tears and gave me a few pecks before I finally let him go. I watched him walk all the way to his car and it felt as if my heart was being pulled out of my chest.

"Jake!" I called back to him and he turned around to look at me.

I ran outside and approached him and hugged him, "One last goodbye couldn't hurt,"

Jacob kissed my temple and ran his fingers through my hair,"It could never hurt."

He placed his hands on my cheeks before he gave me long, breath-taking kiss. After he broke away I gazed up at him.

"I'll FaceTime you when you make your first stop, okay?" I told him and he gave me an understanding nod.

"Goodbye, Nessie." Jacob softly said.

I gave him a soft smile that looked like a grimace at best, "Bye, Jake." I whispered.

His bittersweet smile was the last thing I saw as I watched him enter his car and drive away from my home. My tears freely ran down my cheeks while I walked back inside. My dear Aunt Rosalie was there to give me the warmest embrace she could as a vampire.

Mom stroked my hair and rubbed my back while giving me comforting words. I knew I'd be fine but my other half wasn't here with me and that was what I needed.

Jacob POV:

Leaving Renesmee was the most painful thing I've ever had to do. It felt like I was suffocating and I couldn't see straight. I kept a small picture of her near my speedometer and I looked at it whenever the nagging feeling of being away from Nessie hit me.

The next exit couldn't come any faster, I wanted to see her beautiful face even if it was from a screen. Just to know that she's okay and I could ease her pain for a little bit. It's amazing to see how much my life has changed because I met Renesmee. I never thought I could love again until her, now what I felt in the past couldn't compare to the immense love I had for Nessie.