FORGOTTEN FIRST LOVE // TAEJIN

2. Nobody's Love

"You can make a grown man cry if you ever say goodbye ... You could make a grown man cry if you ever left my side."

- Nobody's Love, Maroon 5

2. Nobody's love

That night ...

"Tae, darling, I really need your help in planning our wedding. Can't you take a day off for just tomorrow?"

Their wedding will be held in a month and Jin has never had any help. From the motif, the suits, the catering services even the invitations. He is so tired and he, for the first time asks Taehyung's help. His fiancé came home that night on their shared apartment at 10 p.m. he waited until he finished eating, took a shower and settled to bed before he opened the topic.

"Love, I have work. I have an important meeting for tomorrow."

Jin grumbled and tried not to sound annoyed when he spoke again, "You have never put any input in this wedding at all. maybe you can help me a bit. I have work too but I can sacrifice for our wedding, then why can't you?"

No matter how gentle he tried to sound, the bitterness in his voice just exploded inside the room making Taehyung sit on the bed and looked at Seokjin. he is obviously pissed and just wanted a good night's sleep.

"Well, unlike you, I actually do so much for my company. I told you, you can do as much as you please with that wedding. I will just show up on D day and get over with it." He laid down in bed again and covered his head with the duvet. "I'm going to sleep. let's talk about this some other day."

Jin just stared at the ball of cloth beside him and he can't believe what he just heard. He felt useless and worthless at the same time. He gulped and pulled the covers away from Taehyung's head harshly.

"What the fuck is wrong with you!? You talk as if you're not the one who proposed to me!" He raised his voice and let his frustrations be known. "All I am asking is your help! If you don't want anything to do with the wedding why not just cancel it? You make it look like I was the only one excited to get married!"

Taehyung grumbled and sat up again he threw a sharp gaze at Jin.

"What if I don't want this wedding at all?"

Seokjin's hand trembled. He slapped Taehyung.

"What do you mean by that?" he asked.

But his question fell into deaf ears as Taehyung stood up and walked to the bathroom ignoring him.

"TAEHYUNG! COME BACK HERE!"

He followed him, but Taehyung just twisted his body until they were face to face.

"Jin, can you just shut up? I am tired of your nagging, fuck! I just want a good night's sleep and you won't give it to me!"

"Maybe if you're not living with me, you will have that. Maybe, if you don't have me as a fiancé, no one will ever force you to do anything!"

Seokjin let his tears fall. He badly wants to punch Taehyung in the face right now, because he can't understand what is happening and he is afraid of what will happen once the fight and the yelling battle intensifies. On their usual fights, it won't result to this, they will only exchange a few words, talk about their problem, and fix it, but Seokjin guessed this is all the pent-up frustrations from each other that is talking.

"Maybe you're right. I think I need to reevaluate this relationship."

Seokjin's mouth fell open.

"I'm leaving. I will stay at my Mom's place. I don't want to see you for now."

He watched as Taehyung packed his bags. Seokjin sat on the side of the bed. He kept brushing his hair with his hand and tried his best not to beg for Taehyung to stay.

"Are we done, Taehyung?"

He asked when the latter was about to walk out the door.

"To be honest, I don't really know."

The clicking of the door followed suit and Taehyung's car engine resonated on Seokjin's ears. He looked at the ring in his finger. He threw it on the floor and screamed. He spent the night smoking in his room, a habit he has forced to stop since he got into a relationship with Taehyung.

At midnight, a call from Taehyung's Mom startled him and the next thing he knew, Taehyung is in the hospital and he forgot everything about Jin.

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"Everything is really my fault."

He kicked the stone nearest to his feet as he looks at the view of the river. It's 2am, he is the one in charge to watch Taehyung, but the other doesn't want anything to do with him and asked for some space. So, here he is, standing only with his t-shirt in a cold November night feeling the chill run down his skin.

He has been standing there for about two hours, and he decided to walk back the hospital.

On his way, he can't stop thinking about the fight.

Where did it all went wrong?

Since when did Taehyung stopped loving him?

Did he got colder first? or Taehyung just found someone else?

He shook his head. His thoughts are killing him. It's least likely for Taehyung to cheat. Never will he do it.

He didn't noticed that he is already in front of Taehyung's room. He went inside and sat beside the bed. Taehyung's eyes are closed. Seokjin just sighed and watched him sleep.

"I saw our photos together. I think I believe that we are boyfriends." He was shocked when Taehyung spoke, but he didn't said anything he just let the man speak. "But I still can't understand why. How?"

Seokjin gulped.

"Well, you confessed to me after four years since you know who left."

"I did?

He nodded his head.

"But why don't I feel anything for you? They say when amnesia strikes, the heart remembers even if the brains forget. Then why don't I feel anything?"

Seokjin's lips quiver. He doesn't know what to say. Shall he say they almost broke up before he leaves? If he does, then will Taehyung be running off to Yoongi then?

No, he can't let that happen. He has worked hard to build their relationship before, and he will never let down a fight.

"I think you just need time."

Taehyung just looked at him and slowly wiped his eye from tears.

"What if I live with you once I get out of here?"

Seokjin smiled and held his hand.

"You want us to give this a shot?"

Taehyung nodded. Seokjin smiled wide and he almost wants to jump for joy.

"I guess so. This is my present now, I think if I remember everything again, I should accept the reality that I'm with you and not Yoongi-hyung."

But that smile faded again. Taehyung must've noticed the change in his expressions and immediately became apologetic.

"Sorry, Jin-hyung. I didn't mean to."

He shook his head.

"It's okay, darli – oh, I mean Taehyung. You will be released in a week. You can change your mind anytime." He said.

He can't stand staying in the same room as him. so he quickly stood up and left Taehyung again.