FORGOTTEN FIRST LOVE // TAEJIN

4. Residual Love

A/n: for those still wondering who tops or bottoms, TaeJin switch. 😉

"I keep seeing visions of you, visions and visions of you. I keep getting stuck ... stuck in this déjà vu. Even in my darkest hour even when I know it can't be true. I keep seeing visions of you, visions and visions of you."

- Visions, Maroon 5

4. Residual Love

Another week had passed, Taehyung was granted a month-long leave for work to give him time to recover and he spent the first week just observing Seokjin. They slept in the same room and he is fine with that, Seokjin feels warm whenever he catches himself tangled with him in the middle of the night and he just had to pull away because even if he wanted to just cuddle him, he doesn't want to give the other false hopes that he is remembering what they had.

Every morning, as Taehyung noted, Seokjin gets up at 5 am to cook them breakfast. He will sneak and look at him every chance he gets to without the other knowing and Taehyung didn't fail to see how Seokjin seemed to be so hollow when he is alone. His eyes were dead, and he always sighs and is close to crying. It made Taehyung feel bad.

Even though his eighteen-year-old self seemed to hate Seokjin, it didn't really run deep. He was just jealous because Yoongi always seems to put Seokjin first in everything instead of him. The man really did nothing to him, he is in fact nice, and he is just a quiet fellow who observes everything he sees, cracks jokes most especially when Yoongi is only around. His younger self saw it as an act of seducing Yoongi by making him happy, but as Taehyung thinks about it now, with the residual wisdom his brain still acquires, he can see that Seokjin is just that comfortable with his roommate and he felt stupid for acting like an ass before.

He just wants to remember everything in a snap. He badly wants to ask Jin about how he is as a fiancé because staying in this house gives him a negative feeling about whether he has been nice. This is so far from what he had imagined his future would be.

Yes, he was informed what happened the day of his supposed to be wedding with Yoongi and he wondered if it affected him that much that it jaded him.

Seokjin doesn't look happy in general even in some photos with them together. He is raking his brain why.

He looked at the clock beside his bed, 4 am. He got up walked to their kitchen and prepared hot chocolate. Taehyung has been thinking about it all night, and he really, really wants to know how they go together and how he acted with Seokjin before. Today is the perfect time because Jin won't go to work.

He took over the kitchen and prepared them breakfast, and just like the other days, Seokjin woke up at exactly 5 am and was surprised to see Taehyung already up.

"Good morning," Seokjin greeted. "You're up early."

Taehyung hummed and offered a plate of pancakes to Seokjin.

"Yeah, I wanted us to talk about something ..." he started, "I mean, about us in this relationship."

Taehyung kept his eyes on Seokjin who obviously froze.

Did he get nervous? For what? Why?

"What do you want to know?" he put down his utensils carefully and looked at Taehyung.

He stared back at him, and there it was again. Whenever Taehyung looks at him eye-to-eye, Seokjin seemed to put those defenses around him and he can't understand why. Isn't he supposed to be carefree and comfortable around me since I am his fiancé?

But then, he realized that he has amnesia and not just that, the first person he looked for when he woke up was Yoongi, his ex. He can understand where Jin is coming from.