FORGOTTEN FIRST LOVE // TAEJIN

7. One Last Chance

"Tell me how to feel about you now. Let me know, do I suffocate or let go? Think I'm tired of getting over it and just starting something new again. I'm getting sick of the beginnings and always coming to your defenses I guess it's good to get it off my chest, I guess I can't believe I haven't yet."

- Tell Me How, Paramore

7. One Last Chance

"You definitely deserve all these bruises, Taehyung." Jimin said. Taehyung came to him after the incident where Seokjin punched him. There, Taehyung told him every single piece of memory he remembered, and he was rewarded by another punch by him. "If I only knew before that Jin-hyung is suffering that much, I would've taken him away."

Jimin put pressure in the cut on Taehyung's lips.

"Ouch!"

"You deserve it!" Jimin snickered. "How could you be that cruel? Calling someone else's name while fucking Jin is just so, so low. Poor guy, he really loved you so much he even lost his respect on himself."

He heard Jimin's voice cracked. He lifted his gaze that if focused on the floor and looked at his best friend. He is doing his best not to cry. Taehyung felt so bad about himself. Even Jimin felt how hurtful it must've been to be treated like shit for a decade.

"I know, I'm the worst, that's why I am trying to make things right. I want to make him happy." He said, "But how will I even do that? I broke him."

"To be honest, I don't want to help you. I want you to go crazy thinking how you will redeem yourself. I also want Jin hyung to leave you, live the life he missed just because he focused all his love and attention on you. You don't even love him, what are you doing? Just let him go!"

Taehyung was speechless. He looked at Jimin. "I can't ..."

"Why?"

"I don't know, I just can't! I tried okay, it's been three weeks since I started remembering bits of our past, I know most of the time, I am an asshole, but I ... I don't want him to go. I thought at first it was guilt that I feel, but it's not. I am certain it is not, Jimin. Every night, since I first cuddled with him, since then, I can't let go of his warmth. He stabilizes me, I feel safe when I am around him."

Jimin shook his head. "He is not your life saver, Taehyung. Have you considered that this maybe an effect of your amnesia? He is the only person, aside from your parents, that is with you. This is not love, and even if you are starting to like him, would that matter? You already took everything from him. I don't think he will forgive you that easily."

"Then what should I do?!"

"Take some time apart?"

"I can't!"

"Then figure it out yourself. I am not, Seokjin so I don't know exactly what he feels. Don't ask me about what you should do because I'm fucking angry at you. You don't know what you have, Taehyung and who are willing to die just to take him away from your arms."

Taehyung sensed something different from the way Jimin talked. He knows him like the back of his hands and he saw that glint of possessiveness and anger mixed with ... envy? Why would he be envious? Is there any reason for him to?

Then it hit him.

It sums up why even before, Jimin always sticks with him whenever Seokjin is around. Why the other is so protective of Seokjin even before. He remembered one time, Jimin telling him he will be courting Seokjin when they were seventeen, but the older refused and asked Jimin if they can only stay friends because he is in love with someone else.