Scissorhands The Last Snow

Hurt Me Again

I seriously thought my eyes were deceiving me because I seriously could not believe what I was seeing. Kade.....Kade. He was standing right in front of me. Offering me the most beautiful smile in the world...completely oblivious to who I am....he has no clue. My heart wrenched just a little bit in my chest. My hand was shaking just a little as I held the coffee cup in my hand. I could feel my eyes were wide and my mouth was agape. Kade's smile turned into a confused one as I stared. But I just could not help it. My entire body was lacking any type of function at this moment. So many thoughts, memories were going through my head at this point and it was all becoming too much for me. There was this sensation in my stomach, a tingling sensation that I've never felt before...well I think I haven't felt before. If I have felt it before, then its been too long because its overwhelming me.

"Sir are you okay?" Kade asked, concern lacing his voice. His voice hasn't changed at all. Still sweet as sugar and laced with care.

I built up enough skills to speak to him.

"Y-yeah...I'm fine" I chuckled nervously. He gave me a weird smile.

"Tell me if you need anything" He said sweetly before turning on his heel and walking back to the counter. I couldnt believe it was him. I just couldn't. I could still see traces of him from 6 years ago. Only differences I see is that he's gotten taller and his face looks more mature. But other than that, he still looks the same. Nonetheless he was beautiful. More beautiful than before, if that was possible.

The air started to become more and more stuffy in here and I started to feel closed in. This was a very uncomfortable feeling and I did not like it one bit. I took a sip of my coffee, hoping it would help any but it didn't. My hand was shaking violently. I sat the cup down and his my hands under the table where they could shake without question. I began to take in deep breaths to try and soothe my body that was going haywire. I pulled out my wallet to pay for the coffee and get the hell out here until I heard squealing.

"Babe stop it!" I heard Kade laughing from across the coffee shop.

"No since your always late you have to be punished for it!" A deeper male voice spoke. I tried to keep my eyes on the table but I just couldn't. My eyes gazed up and it was a shot of pain directly through my heart. Kade was in the arms of some unidentified male. Being tickled relentlessly.

"Okay okay I'm sorry it won't happen again!!!" Kade squealed again and the guy laughed. And as if it couldn't get any worse, I watched in horror as they kissed each others lips.

I couldn't do this. I can't do it. This is too much for me to handle at once. I need to get out of here before I go insane. Without a second thought, I got up from my seat with a loud scrape against the tile floor. I could feel all eyes on me but I turned quickly and made my way out of the coffee shop, almost pushing the door right off the hinges. I gasped for air as I stumbled outside. It was pouring rain so my clothes were getting instantly wet but I didn't care. I was just glad to be away from Kade and his lover or whatever. He moved on....he actually moved on. I thought it would feel good to have him move on and to forget about me. To find someone to love him and take care of him since I never could or never would. But it hurts...its hurting me more than it should. Seeing him with someone else.... its killing me. Its sucking the breath from my lungs and trying to murder me. I can't be around him. I can't be here. I should have killed Drake and just went straight home. I can't....dammit I can't hardly think! I need to get the fuck out of here.

After taking a few breaths, I started to walk towards my car, wanting to get out of here and go home. I began to walk briskly across the parking lot of the shop, my feet making giant puddles as I they slammed against the wet pavement. My car was just feet away and that meant I was nearly home free. I could already feel the shaking in my body starting to fade.