Scissorhands The Last Snow

Guess Who?

The sound of my cellphone woke me up from my deep slumber. I let out a whine as I sluggishly opened my eyes and looked at my alarm clock sitting on the nightstand next to my bed. It read 5:00 am.  Who the fuck is calling me at 5 am? . Letting out a grunt, I scooted closer ans grabbed my phone off of the nightstand. Ryan. I rolled my eyes before tapping yes.

"What the fuck do you want?" I snapped tiredly into the phone as I turned the light on and sat up. I heard Ryan let out a chuckle on the other end of the line.

"Chill out cranky ass. I was just letting you know you have a meeting at 8 this morning over at Gigi's". He explained to me and I gave him a deadpan look through the phone. He's lucky I couldn't slap the taste out of his mouth because if I could right now, I would.

"And you couldn't wait an hour to tell me? You just had to call now? What the fuck are you doing up at this time anyway???" I was in bitch mode right now. I hate being woke up at this hour and I surely hate being woken up period. He knows this.

"Well I was gonna wait and schedule it for later. But then I talked to the person and found out who they want dead. And I thought you'd be very interested" Ryan defended himself and I just rolled my eyes. I really did not want to deal with his guess games.

"Well who the fuck is it Ry?" My voice was very impatient.

"You'll find out very soon baby boo. See you at 8" The line went dead before I had the time to scold him. I let out a very irritated sigh. And to make matters worse, I wasn't going back to sleep. My eyes were already feeling wide awake. God dammit Ryan!  I growled before climbing out of bed and stretching my muscles. After cracking everything, I walked towards my bathroom and flipped the light on. I blinked a few times to adjust to the stranger light before pushing my boxers down my legs and strolling over to the shower. I turned on the hot water and stepped in, sighing in content as the water hit my skin full force. It burned at first but soon my body adjusted to the temperature.

My mind began to wonder about who could have a contract on their head that was so important to me. Especially important since Ryan refused to tell me over the phone. No one is important to me other than my band and Austin and Alan. That's the extent. And Ryan wouldn't be so secretive if it was one of them because he knows I don't f uck around. I would say Gigi but she's annoying to me. Always trying to flirt and get me to have sex with her. I don't even like girls so that's not happening.

Someone from my past maybe? Then again no one from my past really mattered other Than...him

Kade

Sweet Kade Masters. I've tried not to think about him since the night I left. And yet my mind wonders. Wonder how he's been for the past 6 years. What he looks like now. What he's doing with his life. If he still hates me for leaving him behind.

His voice. His cries. His begging. It all echoes in my mind from time to time. Its something that I will never forget because I destroyed us both. He was offering himself to me. Practically begging for me to take him. And I just completely threw him away and left. And in the process, I destroyed myself. The first year was hard, nightmare after nightmare, sleepless night after sleepless night. Crying and crying never ending tears. The countless times Austin or Alan held me through the night because I couldn't hand the guilt and heartbreak. Sometimes they both would hold me just to help me get through one night. How those two dealt with me was a mystery. But nonetheless I'm grateful.

I clenched my eyes shut as tears began to form in my eyes.

I need to stop this right now. I promised myself I wouldn't resort back to myself from 6 years ago. What's done is done. And I can't change that. That Chris is dead and gone. And I have to accept that.