Scissorhands The Last Snow

Better Off This Way

I avoided going home for a week. I had been staying at Kade's and his family seemed to be okay with it but in all honesty, I have over stayed my welcome. Judy expressed that I could stay as long as I needed to but I didn't want to intrude on them. I had a couple days to think about it and in all truth, I think I hurt my dad. Even though he torments me mentally, beats me to a bloody pulp and treats me like shit, I couldn't help but feel guilty about what I said to him.

I know talking about mom is a very hard and touchy subject for him. Her leaving him is what basically started his alcoholism. I mean, I know what it's like to have someone who you love deeply but yet they look at you in total disdain and just treats you like the specks of dirt beneath their feet. I wouldn't wish that type of pain on anyone and yet he's been dealing with it for years. I never took the time to notice because I was busy trying to see a better outlook for myself.

Of course the way he chooses to deal with the pain is wrong. I know this. The drinking will do nothing. Beating me won't help the situation. Hating everyone and everything isn't going to change what is. Its the cold hard truth and he's going to have to accept that. I'm not defending him in any way, shape or form.

But I get the pain he's feeling. I really get it.

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"Chris I don't want you to go back" Kade pouted as he watched me pull my creepers on. He was sitting on his bed with his arms crossed like a child. I smiled sadly at him as I stood up straight.

"I know Kade. I'm sorry but I can't abandon my home. " I murmered before opening my arms for him. He sighed before getting up and walking into my arms. I held him close to me and placed a kiss on his forehead.

"What if he's there? What if he hurts you again?? I don't want you to get hurt Chrissy" Kade sounded genuinely concerned about my safety and it made my heart flutter in my chest. My love for him grew and grew each and everyday. He's so precious and beautiful it's amazing that such a person could exist.

"I'll be fine Kade. I promise he won't hurt me anymore" I placed a kiss on his head again as I heard him sigh. Kade pulled back and looked up at me, his blue eyes filled with something I couldn't quite read.

"When will you be back?" He asked and I rolled my eyes at him. He obviously forgot tonight was prom and that I asked him not too long ago, which he said yes to.

"Kade tonight is prom. Levi is taking us remember?" I reminded him and he blushed a little before smiling.

"Oh yeah. Prom. Right. I have to get ready soon!" He rushed out before running towards his closet and looking for his tux. I glanced at the clock and saw that it read 5:00.

"Sweetie its only 5. Prom isn't until 8" I chuckled as he laid the garment bag on his bed. He refused to let me see it all week. I wanted to protest but he was too cute to argue with.

"Yeah well beauty takes time. Now get out and be back by 7:30 sharp Christopher Thomas" Kade glared at me and I suppressed a laugh. But a grin did make it's way on my face. I raised my hands in defeat before backing away slowly.

"Alright 7:30. See you then Kade" He blew a kiss to me before slamming the door in my face. I let out a chuckle before making my way downstairs, passing Judy who wasn't talking on the phone in the kitchen. I gave her a smile, which she returned, before walking out the door, closing it behind me. I put my ear buds on and kept my head down as I began to walk towards hell. I wonder what my dad was doing, what my words did to affect him. Was he drunk or sober for once. Is he passed out or did he die from alcohol poisoning yet. Is he even at home. Was he gonna beat my ass again or not.

So many questions going through my head that will soon be answered the second I get home. I let out a shaky sigh before nodding my head to AFI's Miss Murder. Music is my go to person when Kade isn't available. Even if the song has nothing to do with my mood or situation, it still makes me happy or semi happy at lease.