𝐀 𝐃𝐈𝐅𝐅𝐄𝐑𝐄𝐍𝐓 𝐓𝐘𝐏𝐄 𝐎𝐅 𝐌𝐀𝐆𝐈𝐂, snowbaz [eng]彡 three-shot

SIMON

I don't want him to leave his opportunity of living with others like him, of not hiding anymore, of being happy.
I don't want him to love me and, Crowley, I don't want to love him so much, capable of dying for him, I don't want to feel like my life is over if he goes away. Because loving someone means wanting their happiness and I love Baz so blindly that I want his happiness before anything, even before mine.

"You can't see me the same way because I'm not the same. You can't keep acting like nothing happened, like we are Watford students, like I still have magic..."
"You have magic, Simon"
"No-" he doesn't let me finish. He's used to saying I'm stubborn, but he's the same or even worse.
"You're still magickal, doesn't matter that you can't make any spells, you are still magickal for me"
When Basilton Pitch has something on his head, he doesn't leave you until he sticks that in your head too. He never stops thinking about the thing he wants. And he wants me... I correct myself, he wants me from the past, the one who wasn't scared of anything. Now I'm scared of losing him.

"Spend my time lying on the sofa, drinking cheap cider, having no aspirations, desires or motivation. That's what you see magickal in me? Because that's who I am today"
"No, Simon, you are the boy who gets excited about making a road trip across America, the boy who destroyed a group of vampires without any spells so he could save the lives of Normals, the boy who got shot and almost dies so he could find and help her friend —again— . You are the boy who broke in the fucking Vampire King's house because he thought his boyfriend was in danger. You still are the boy who I pretended to hate because I couldn't accept my feelings and you still are magickal, in other ways but more magickal than before if that's even possible"
"Baz..."

He was right, I was also all of those things. But there's no one to save anymore, no friend to rescue, no house to break in (even though that last thing I did it because I was jealous...)
"We'll go back to our house in England again and what? What are you gonna do there? What awaits you in a life with me? Dr. Wellbelove's gonna remove the wings and the tail and I'm gonna work in a place with Normals. I'm gonna be ordinary, boring..."
"It's not possible to get bored with Simon Snow. I wanna spend my whole life with you. Doesn't matter if it's fighting magickal creatures or... staying relaxed in our home. I want to sleep by your side and wake up seeing your face. That's the best future I could ask for"