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I need someone to hug me and tell me that I'm not as worthless as i think i am

28th May 2020
Dear diary, I'm in tears right now.
I saw Kayden kissing Jessica in the classroom. I left my book in the classroom and when I went to get it, I caught them kissing passionately.
My footsteps seemed to catch their attention as Kayden stopped kissing Jessica and looked straight at me.
I smiled at him but he did what broke my heart.
He continued kissing Jessica who kissed him like he was her life support. He didn't even regard me.
I haven't been able to sleep and it's 2am.
I have cried my heart out and I have no more energy to cry.
I feel so worthless.
I really am worthless. I'm sure he thinks I'm one of those useless girls.
I need someone
I need someone to tell hug me and tell me that I'm not as worthless as I feel I am.

31st May 2020
Dear Diary, I'm getting tired.
Why is love so hard to get?
Why is my love unrequited?
Why do I have to spend my nights fantasizing about someone who don't even know I exist?
Why do I have to fall into the web of love?
I'm 18 for crying out loud but I'm more heartbroken than a 35 year old lady.
Kayden doesn't even know I exist.
Kayden doesn't even look my way.
I'm getting tired, I feel so worthless.
I'm tired of trying.
I think it's time I accept my fate, it's time I accept what life has dished for me.
It's time I take the bull by the horn.
Kayden is never going to acknowledge me. I won't be able to know what it feels to be loved by him.
Dear diary, I need someone to hug me and tell me that I'm not really worthless as I think I am.

2nd June 2020
Dear diary, I'm in high spirits today. Kayden finally looked my way in school today and I couldn't help but blush furiously.
Kayden in every sense is perfect. He is from a rich home, tall, muscular, has six packs and very intelligent.
He is also the captain of my school football team and brought the cup back to our school from our rival school- Infallible.

Kayden is the son of the special advisor to the governor.
Kayden has a deep tenon voice, his voice sounds like ice falling into a glass of water.
Kayden is 19 years old. He celebrated his 19th birthday in a grand style last week which I attended. Painfully, he didn't even notice my existence at his birthday bash. So I left quietly, my heart heavy from pain.

For the past four years of my life, all I have ever yearned for is to be noticed by Kayden. I've done everything possible.
I stopped wearing my glasses, started wearing shorts skirts, starting using make-up and became more feminine but guess what? Kayden didn't look my way but seems to be looking at every other girl.

But today, Kayden looked my way.
He didn't only look my way, he smiled at me.
I looked at him in shock because I was in daze. I didn't believe he was smiling at me.
So I turned around but didn't sight anyone around.

"Hi Pretty, I'm talking to you actually. I'm Kayden" He said with his deep tenon voice resonating from his soul.

"Hi I'm I'm I'm Tasha" I stuttered and felt ashamed for doing that.

"You don't need to feel ashamed Tasha. It's a normal and expected effect every girl have when I approach them" Kayden told me.

"Uh ok" I replied.

Guess what Diary?
He offered me his hands and we walked to the cafeteria together like two love birds.
I'm so fulfilled and happy today.
I did all my house chores happily. I also cleared the weeds that have been covering the rose flowers in my compound.
Dear diary, I'm happy,I need to go now.
Love from Tasha.

5th June 2020
Dear Diary,
Kayden took me to a beautiful and expensive restaurant and asked me to be his girlfriend and I happily screamed 'yes'. This caused other diners to turn around but I didn't give a damn. I'm officially Kayden's girlfriend.

10th June 2020
Dear Diary,
I did something I had vowed that I would never do till my wedding night.
I gave Kayden my virginity. I gave him my whole body, soul and mind.
It all started like this.
Kayden took me out to a party with his friends.
His friends had their girlfriends with them.
It was a romance themed party.
There were lots of wine, tequila, champagnes and other drinks.
Kayden's friend offered me a glass of red wine but I refused.
When Kayden brought the glass, I just couldn't say no.
I knew that I was safe with him. He is my safe haven.
I drank the wine, then another and another.
I soon started feeling tipsy and drunk. I started behaving weirdly.
Kayden soon started kissing me passionately.
I didn't know when we got to a room but all I know was that I started pulling my clothes off and we had sex.
No we made love.
My friend Jenny once told me that when someone say I had sex, it means it was a casual stuff.
While making love meant enjoying every bit of it, being appreciated by your partner, when your partner kissed you like you were a queen.
That was what happened.
Kayden kissed me in such a way that I lost my mind.
I'm so happy.
I feel valued, I know I have a worth.
Kayden told me that he had never seen a girl like me.
Bye for now
Love from Tasha.

12th June 2020
Dear Diary,
Kayden seems to be avoiding me in school. He doesn't feel as ecstatic as he usually felt before.
I wonder what's up with him. I'm going to try to talk to him

13th June 2020
Dear Diary,
Finally, I've been able to chat with Kayden.
I asked him what's up with him. I asked him why he has been avoiding me.
He apologized and told me he had a surprise for me but I'd see the surprise on Friday.
I feel very happy.
I can't wait for Friday.

19th June 2020

Dear Diary,
I'm worthless, I'm useless, I'm foolish, I'm naive.
I feel used, I feel played, I feel cheap.
I know you are wondering why I'm crying and so unhappy when I'm supposed to be happy because Kayden gave me his surprise today.
Well the surprise wasn't good after-all.
I got to the place where Kayden told me to meet up with him but I didn't meet him there.
Instead I saw a TV, DVD, a remote and a piece of paper.
I opened the piece of paper an this is what I saw written on it.
Natasha Hills. I'm sure you are wondering where I am.
Relax. I'm somewhere around but don't search for me.
I will come out when it's time to come out.
Well for your surprise babe it's right in front of you.
I'm sure you can see a LG TV, a DVD and a remote.
In that DVD is a disc. In that disc is how I really feel about you.
Pick up the remote and play the disc.
You will be very surprised at my surprise.
Your Sexy boyfriend,
Kayden Xander.

After I read the note, I was very happy.
I thought that Kayden had recorded a love message to tell me how much he loved me.
Alas, my heart shattered at the sound of the video.
It was the sound of people heavily making out.
I turned around to look at the the and my suspicions were proved.

Kayden had recorded our night of passion. Tears fell out of my eyes.
Why did Kayden record such a video?
Perhaps he wanted to tell me something at the end but I know that the end would be no good.
I thought it was over until I heard some laughters.
I turned around to see Kayden, his friends and Jessica.
They were laughing mockingly.
"Kayden you did this to me?" I asked him tearfully.
"Yes I did that to you" he replied proudly.
"Why? I thought you loved me" I asked.

"My boyfriend never loved you. He told me that he noticed how you were throwing yourself all over him like a worthless tramp. You were always looking at him like an idiot. So I gave him the go ahead to have you on his bed. I must confess he seemed to really have a good time with you because you are a whore." Jessica explained to me as Kayden and his friend laughed.

I felt like the ground should open up and swallow me but it wasn't possible.

"Well dear I never loved you and I have never loved you. I found out that you were attracted to me and I went after you because I some how perceived that you were a virgin. I love having sex with virgins. I thought it would be so hard to have you but I never knew that you were a whore, a worthless girl. It was so easy to have you.
So since I have achieved what I want and my friend has been able to watch a great porn video, it's over between us.
Don't you ever come near me or else I would out this video on social media. Good bye whore. Incase you need more of my body, you can come."
Kayden said as he gave me a fuck you sign before  he walked away with his friends and Jessica.

I feel so worthless. I feel so used.
I feel like I'm a whore. What if Kayden decides to upload the video? Then I would die.
I feel so useless.
I feel so worthless.
I need someone to hug me and tell me that I am not as worthless as I think I am.
Love from Tasha.