IT'S OKAY

CHAPTER 4

I was so angry. How could she shout at me when I was just trying to be there for her, is it my fault she marri..? Whoa, Alex, calm down, he's still your dad

Dad, my foot

Think of happy things

"There is no happy thing in my life" I said as I jumped with my bum on the bed

"Ouch" I said rubbing it

"Jenjang!" Damn it!

I totally forgot about falling down in school. Speaking of school, I'm now curious as to why I fell. Since my mom couldn't be a mother, I decided to call my grandma

I needed some sugar

"Madam Zie Zi here" I heard my grandma say which made me burst out laughing

"Soo Joon-ah?"

I guess she didn't look at the ID before picking

"Why are you laughing?"

"Are you Madam Zie Zi?" I asked amidst laughter

"Yes, but why are you laughing?" I could hear the tone of disapproval in her voice

"Nothing, it just sounds...strange"

"It's not strange, it's unique" she corrected

"Enough" she ordered and I immediately stopped laughing

"My dear grandchild, one thing you need to know is that fashion is a very unique thing, therefore, it cant be compared to every other strange or normal thing, arraseo?" okay?

She talked as if she was telling a child the importance of education

"Okay. And that is why your name is Madam Zie Zi, right. Unique" I said trying to hide my laughter

"Choi Soo Joon" she warned in a low tone

"Sorry"

"Anyway" she signed

"How was your first day at a new school?" she asked

At least, I still had a grandma who cared for me

"It was actually okay"

"You know, you should really stop being a pessimist" she said

"I'm not a pessimist. Besides, something hurtful actually happened today"

"What happened?"

"Well before I got to school, I fell down two stairs but without any injuries, and then in school, I fell hard on my bum twice. Also, I jumped on my bed causing more pain on my bum"

And your daughter isn't helping the situation at all

"Why did you jump on the bed?"

'Because the person I call mom wasn't being a mom and I got angry', I so much wanted to tell her this and to ask her why she was here but decided against it

"Can't I jump on my bed?" I asked using an innocent tone

"Sure you can but not at the expense of your health. I have to go. Later, okay?"

"Okay. Bye, love you"

"Love you too sweetie" she said and we hung up

I signed; I didn't know what to do, I was bored so I bought out my sketch pad wanting to draw Ji Sung since there was no else I had in mind to draw.

As I was drawing him, I started thinking. He seems like a good friend and to be honest he's very handsome. I was still on his subject when I suddenly stopped drawing. Where was he before break? And why did he say I hope to see you again instead of see you tomorrow or see you later? Even though it may seem like a no big deal, it isn't to me. Maybe he just randomly said it, I thought to myself. But...

I was rudely interrupted by someone knocking on my door

"Alexa, are you there?" I heard my mom ask.

'No, its my spirit' I so much wanted to say but I didn't want to talk to her

"Alexa" she called

"I'm sorry" she said but I didn't reply

"I know I shouldn't have shouted at you. I'm wrong and I'm so sorry" she said causing me to roll my eyes

Of course she should be sorry. After a minute,

"Can't I come in?" she asked and since I didn't want to reply neither see her, I got up and locked my door after which she signed and left.

Since I was done sketching and didn't feel like doing anything else, I went to get some sleep

What in the world?!! I screamed in my mind. Who knocks at someone's door waking them?

"I just wanted to let you know that dinner's ready"

In anger, I grunted and laid back down putting the cover over my head

"Aish" I groaned in frustration sitting up. Thanks a lot mom, now I cant sleep. I got and went to my laptop then took it to my bed. I went to YouTube and typed in BTS videos. Since I was sad, and angry, I decided to watch something uplifting so I went to their funny videos, cute moments and other things, and believe me, or not, it actually worked

^^^^^

She wouldn't die, Alex. No, she wouldn't. Calm down, she wouldn't die, she wouldn't...

I jerked up from my bed panting heavily then groaned in anger when I realized that it was just the same nightmare. Seeing that it was already 6:30 am and I couldn't sleep even if I wanted to, I got down and prepared for school. By 6:55, I opened the door to my room quietly, in case she was awake. I prepared early because I didn't want to see her and the spirit of going to school was in me. I opened the cabinet and took my favourite cereal and one of my best foods, golden morn, poured it into a bowl, added sufficient milk then started digging; I wanted to get to school fast and I didn't eat last night. After preparing my lunch of peanut buttered jelly sandwich and an apple, I took my bag and went out of the house into my vehicle after clearing up the kitchen. When I got to school it was 7:15 so I had over 30 minutes to myself. I parked my car into the parking spot, and then went to my homeroom class. Since it was empty, I went to the rooftop. I opened K-pop, plugged in my head phones, and closed my eyes. I was enjoyed the morning breeze until I felt someone sit beside me

I opened my eyes and look at him

He's handsome, was the first thing that came to my mind. I wasn't sure who will win between Ji Sung and him

I would have concluded that all boys were fine in this school, it wouldn't be correct

"You weren't sleeping?" he asked with a suave, rich and deep voice

"I was going to quietly sit and stay for a while before leaving" he said

"I just came also" I told him

He then turned to look at me and smiled, making me smile also, before I quickly controlled myself. He must have noticed it, seeing as his smile grew before he turned his again back

"I haven't seen you before. You must be new"

"Just came yesterday"

He looked back at me

"You look Korean, but not completely" he said

"I'm half. Dad's an American" I said looking back to the front

No one said anything for a while, before he stood back up

"You should come here often, the breeze here is fantastic. Cools you, even when you have a lot on your mind"

"I'll note that" I said

"See you" he said with a smile and left

He had gone before I realized that we didn't exchange names. I wanted to stay for a longer period of time, but time wouldn't allow it, so I just went back down, few minutes after he was gone.