Mask off

Where are you?

Damian was on his phone, scrolling through social media yet again.

Damian laughed at the photos, before putting his phone down. He has been on it long enough. He had a nice conversation with his mother today, that really boosted his mood. They talked about her visiting in the new year. Damian would like that, he would like that a lot. He slumped back into his bed a little more. It was mid December, so the sun was already down even though it was only 6 pm. Should he let his father's side of the family back into his life. He missed them, no matter how much he tried to hide it. Maybe things would change for the better. They would spend more time together and everything would be okay.

He forgives them for replacing him, he knows they didn't mean anything. They can talk things out. He didn't hate Carrie, she could even still be Robin. He just missed them, he wanted to let go of all the anger. He sighed, looking at the mirror hung on the wall. Even though it's only been 5 months, Damian looked difference. His hair was longer, a lot longer. It got curly, maybe it was because of his death or just because he grew his hair out. He suspected that he got his curly hair from his Grandmother, Martha Wayne. She had curly hair as well. He had scars, The one through his eye and the ones on his neck. He had piercings on his ears and his nose, and also one tattoo.

Damian sighed, running his hand over his arm. Sometimes he hated his scars. They way they took up both of arms, making people stare at him when he wore short sleeves. They made him feel weak, made him feel like he failed. He hasn't cut since he came back to life. He wants to get better, for himself and everyone who believes in him. It just feels too hard somedays. It feels like it would be easier to just cut, to end it all. He didn't want to make anyone sad, didn't want them to feel the way he felt.

The creaking of his door made Damian turn his head. Lucy was at the door, wearing some pyjamas. "Hey" She whispered before coming to sit down next to Damian. "Hey" Damian said back. Lucy was a smart girl, but she was especially smart when it came to emotions. "What's up" Lucy asked, turning her attention fully to Damian. Damian just shrugged. He didn't understand how to put his emotions into words. "It's okay y'know, I won't judge you" Lucy explained. Damian nodded, "I know, I just don't know how to explain it." Lucy understood. 

Damian Shifted a little in his seat. "It's just, I'm nervous about my mother. I haven't seen her in years, what if she is disappointed in me. What if she think I'm weak because of my" He started, taking a deep breath. "Because of my scars." Lucy knew he was referring to his self-harm scars. "Damian, those scars are nothing to be ashamed of" Lucy said, but a hand on his forearm. "Those scars don't make you weak, Damian you are the strongest person I know" Lucy continued. "You are a good person Damian, You've helped all of us. You helped me leave my father, and you help the others get out of bad situations." Damian nodded, smiling at Lucy. "Thanks Lucy" Damian smiled.

Lucy smiled more, taking her hand off Damian's arm. "Are you excited" Lucy asked the boy. Damian hesitated for a minute, before nodding. "Yeah, I haven't seen her or Mara in years." Lucy hummed, "What's Mara like." Damian laughed a little, "She's crazy, she would do anything you dare her to do." Damian smiled at some of the memories he had with Mara. Lucy laughed at that. "You'd like her, she would fight anyone" Damian said again. Damian laughed, joining in with Lucy. "She sounds fun" Lucy said in between laughs. Damian nodded, "She's a special person, but she's like my sister." Lucy smiled again.

"If she's anything like you, I'm sure she is fun" Lucy said. Damian snorted at that, "Yeah." Lucy looked out the window, "Nolan asked me out." Damian looked at Lucy, a little shocked but very happy. "About time, I thought he was too pussy to do it" Damian laughed. Lucy smiled a little before nodding. "I'm assuming you said yes" Damian asked. Lucy smiled, "Yeah, we are going on a date this weekend." Damian smiled, "That's amazing Lucy, I'm happy for you too." Lucy smiled, "Thanks Damian." 

A comfortable silence fell upon them. The stars were shining through Damian's window, lighting up the room with a dim light. He smiled at Lucy once more, before letting his attention go to the stars. 

(Sorry for the late upload, My wifi has been going out a lot. Hopefully it will be fixed soon. Anyways, I'm excited for the next few chapters ;) )