Cas:
Cas was awoken by the buzz of another notification and as the sleep slipped away from his mind he felt an intense fear. Somehow he knew it was Dean writing back. The time on the phone said it was just after five am. He had to be at work in an hour anyway so he turned off the alarm that was set to go off in another ten minutes anyway and opened up his emails. Sure enough, there it was: An email from Dean. It felt like a hive of bees were suddenly alight inside his stomach and he rubbed at it trying to stop the feeling, but as he opened the email and started reading the feeling only intensified.
Cas,
I'm so sorry for everything that I put you through. I was an ass and I realized now just how much of one I was. I didn't mean to push you away. You were the one constant in my life that never gave up on me, and it feels now like you have. I never wanted you to leave. Why did you change your number? You can't imagine how it made me feel when I realized I'd never get to call you again, never get to hear your voice saying my name. I know I've done terrible things, and that I don't deserve you in my life, but I miss you so much. Cas, I need you in my life, for so many reasons, and if you want to know those reasons then please, pick up the phone and call me. I will list every single one of those reasons for you. Or better yet, tell me where you are and I will come to you, right now, right this minute. Please, you have to know that you are the most important person in my life, even if I was never able to say it before. Angel or human, I don't care, I NEED you Cas. Please don't turn me away. I don't want to live my life without you in it.
Dean
Cas lay back against his thin little pillow and stared at the ceiling for what felt like forever. What was that? Dean just poured his heart out to him! The ceiling began to grow blurry and he realized that he was crying. Something inside him broke then and his entire body was racked with sobs. Dean loved him, even if he hadn't exactly said the words, and he wanted him in his life. The sun was rising quickly and he realized this almost too late. He hurried to get dressed and brush his teeth before tucking his phone into his shirt pocket. For now it belonged next to his heart, for that was where Dean Winchester had really always been.
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Missing You
FanfictionAfter rescuing his vessel's daughter Castiel sets out on a life of his own feeling like a failure now that he is human again. He makes his way to Chicago, discards his phone, his last tie to the Winchesters, and takes on a job as a janitor in a scho...
