Denial

Chapter 5~ Meltdown

Unlike Professor Umbridge's class, Potions became more unbearable. Snape made sure he gave Harry , Ron and I a miserable time. He made us redo his potion experiment more than 5 times. Harry was usually Snape's normal target but after today I seem to make it to that target list for almost damaging his Godson's eye sight.

As every second past it became more unbearable but alas potion was finally over. Snape gave the Gryffindors a 3000 word essay to write about Liquid Luck although we weren't quite there yet on the topic but as always no one was brave enough to complain, not at least to his face.

The day went by so slowly. As every second past the urge to see Darco grew stronger and stronger. I couldn't concentrate in Herbology and Goodness the exams are coming up and my mind is somewhere in the middle of Hogwarts.

I decided to not think about Draco anymore because the more I do the more I feel guilty about cursing him and almost damaging his eye sight, his beautiful eyes...... Stop it Harmonie, you're loosing focus on yourself I thought. I'll just go check on him later and by check I mean standing a far and observing him to see how he's doing, I couldn't possibly go and ask him how he's doing. Harmonie Granger making time to go check on Draco Malfoy!!!!!!! I would be a laughing stock. Pansy would literally laugh at my face, she is so protective of Draco, almost like she's likes him.

Finally the miserable day came to an end. And certainly it was time for dinner. I met Harry and Ron at the Gryffindor common room and we all made our way to the dining hall. As we're walking into the great dining hall, my eyes couldn't help but scan for Draco.

Unfortunately Draco seem to be nowhere, not even at his usual spot at the Slytherin table or at the entrance. We made our way to the Gryffindor table and sat down. I sat next to Dean because apparently Ginny was no where to be seen either. Dumbledore gave his usual announcement as always and after that we all started digging in.

I somehow seem to have lost my appetite. I just took a drink from my pumpkin juice and I was off to the girls lavatory. Ignoring Ron and Harry screaming my name I made my way up. For some reason I just wanted to be alone. Not to be alone to study or anything, for the first time I need time to think and analyze myself.

I decided that I would do much better thinking with the fresh breeze on the Astronomy tower. Passing the girls Lavatory I made my way up to the Astronomy tower.

As I drew nearer and nearer to the Astronomy tower I heard sobs. Someone was sobbing and crying. Who might that be I wondered. As I drew nearer the sobs grew louder. I reclined my body vertically against the hard wall that leads to the entrance of the tower and tried to take a glance to see who it was. Straining my neck to make a 180 degree so I could see better.

Standing just with his white button shirt, loosely and roughly tucked into his trousers, with his hair all over the place, and his uniform robes on his hand. IT WAS DRACO! He was having a breakdown or so it seems. He was crying, sobbing I couldn't help but feel sorry for him. I felt guilty.

Was it because of what I did? I wanted hug him really badly but of course I couldn't, he would literally laugh at my face. He was leaning against the wall facing upwards so I could actually see his face. He had dark circles all over his eyes. So he still has his eyes I was relieved for a second. He looked sad and fragile. If only I could run to him and give him the tightest hug possible. But I knew I couldn't and I hated it.

And Suddenly the sobbing stopped.
"What are you looking at?, you filthy little mud blood" cried Draco. At that point I couldn't careless what names he called me I just wanted to know if he was okay. "Uhh........sorry I didn't realize there was anyone here" "came to gloat, didn't you?"

"Of course not, why would I do that?.....I just came to get some fresh air" I answered back to Draco "clearly Granger, there's a lot of place you can get fresh air from" responded Malfoy while he took off. I know I shouldn't have done it but Merlin's Beard i did. "Draco" I called, he stopped midway and turned to look at me with his sharp stares without uttering a word.

And before I knew it I uttered the words. "Are you okay?" That took me by surprise too. Draco just looked at me, laugh and uttered the words "like you care?" and walked off. What is he taking about? of course I care or I just realize I did.

I felt terrible.
Slowing I made my way to the Gryffindor common room. And sure enough Harry and Ron were waiting for me. Clustered behind a stalk of books was where Harry and Ron were.

At that point I've had enough. I couldn't think straight, all I could think of was Darco and if he was alright. "Blimey Harmonie, where've you been?, we've been looking all over for you" blurted Ron "Did you have something to do?" Inquired Harry "I had a stomach ache so i went to see Madam Pomfrey" I responded sounding vague but thankfully neither of them noticed.

"Is that so.......anyways Harmonie remember what I told you about how Harry and I've got something to tell you " "yeah what is it " I responded back to Ron. And Ron looked at Harry. "Erh.......so in our class with professor Umbridge we're just learning a theoretical knowledge about Defense against the dark arts" Harry begin, "so Ron and I were thinking, why don't we come up with a solution to that, Right ?

So we decided that we should train ourselves, we don't need anyone to Train us, after all we've been through, we already know some of the basics of Defense against the Dark arts" "so what do you think Harmonie?"asked Ron right after Harry finished.

I didn't want to object, because I wasn't in the mood, also it sounded like a good idea to me so I agreed. And we stared going over the plan to recruit some students if they wanted to join. "Harmonie, are you okayy?" Harry asked out of the blue.

It took me off guard. "What do you mean, of course I'm okay" I replied trying to sound casual. "Yeah Harmonie, I've noticed too, you look like something's bothering you " added Ron "stop being silly both of you, of course I'm fine , I'll be off to bed now I'll see you two at breakfast tomorrow" I responded leaving behind a confused Harry and Ron.