Him | A Kim Namjoon Fanfiction | COMPLETED

Nineteen

"where are we going?" I begged as Namjoon led me down into a part of town I'd never been before.

"Shh, it's a surprise" he let out an excited giggle as he pulled me left.

"Fine, if you insist" I sighed, playfully rolling my eyes.

"Right close your eyes" he suddenly came to a halt and stood in front of me.

"What?"

"Just do it"

I closed my eyes and let him gently guide me forward a few steps and face me slightly to my left.

"Aaaaand open" he said, gleefully.

I did and before me stood and beautiful stone building, a red canopy, with gold detailing stretched out above the arched glass front door. The windows lined curtains made with the same silky fabric.

"Is this..."

"The same restaurant chain we went to in Tokyo? You bet it is. It's been six months  today so I wanted to do something special for you. And don't worry if you forgot! I don't really count the months but with everything you've been through lately, and how amazingly strong you've been, I thought you deserved something nice"

"Joon I- thank you. So much" I threw my arms around his neck and placed a soft kiss on his lips.

"You're most welcome" he grinned. "Shall we?" He grabbed my hand and walked me to the entrance, where he pulled open the door for me "madam" he said, in the poshest English accent he could manage.

God, I loved that man.

We were seated at a table by the window, just like in Tokyo. The tealight candle in the centre of the table cast shadows on Namjoon's face that only made him look even more beautiful. The adoring look he had on his face was breathtaking. Our hands reached out across the table to find each other in the middle and just for a moment, I felt okay. I felt stronger. I felt unstoppable. He made me better.

"Wine mi'lady?" He chuckled as he poured himself a glass.

"Why thank you kind sir"

The night passed in a blur. several glasses of wine and champagne, a delicious plate of unagi and a dorayaki and a lot of laughter later, we were wiped out. I couldn't breathe in my dress and Joon had to slacken his belt. Definitely the sign of a great night. I hadnt felt that good in a long time.

As we reached the front door to our apartment, Namjoon swept me up off my feet and carried me inside bridal style. Or at least drunk bridal style because he was stumble and wobbling so much I swear he almost dropped me twice.

"You were right. It did cheer me up. A lot. I've missed just laughing with you so much. Thank you" I said as he carefully laid me on the bed.

"Anything for you, beautiful"

I slipped out of my dress and buried my self under the covers just as he came to join me. His fingers traced the outline of my shoulder and all the way down my side, until he stopped at my underwear, tugging them ever so slightly.

"Sooooo... You wanna?" He smirked and gave me a wink.

I nodded and my lips collided with his. Hot and intense. He slipped my underwear off before undressing himself. My mind raced but all I wanted was to stay in this moment with him. I needed him. All of him. I never wanted to be without him again. He turned me over onto my back and hovered over me, not once parting his lips from mine.

My mind couldn't focus. The weight of his body, the sound of his ragged breath, his grip on my waist. It was all too much. Suddenly I was back in the alley way and it wasn't Namjoon on top of me, it was Sam. I could still hear his voice.

"If you don't want to give me a baby, I'll have to force you"

As clear as if he was saying it right now. My whole body filled with a searing panic.

I couldn't breath.

I was bleeding.

He's too strong.

I don't want this.

Stop.

But I couldn't speak, once again I was paralyzed. My tiny whimpers drowned out by his moans.

It's happening again.

Eventually it was over. He fell back to his side of the bed, panting as beads of sweat trickled down the side of his face.

I tried to muffle my cry as I turned over and sobbed into my hand.

"Baby?" Namjoon's sweet smooth voice called out. "Baby, what's wrong?"

I couldn't control it anymore. I let out a long wail as the hot tears streamed down my cheeks. I couldn't even see his face through my blurred vision as he rolled me over to face him.

"I'm sorry, it just- I was suddenly back in the alley.. with him.. I'm so sorry. I tried to say something but I couldn't speak. I'm sorry" I balled.

"Shhh, it's okay. You're with me now. I'm sorry"