Meadow Of Roses (Dazai x reader)

Bright

Y/N
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It's evening in Yokohama as you walk the streets.
Chuuya asked to buy him some more wine since he's too busy to do it himself.
You know he's going to get a fat hangover after this but you don't think he'll care, he says it's to help him, 'focus' with work...

You walk by the ocean. It glistens gold with the evening sun. You smile.
Dazai used to take you on dates here, he used to open your eyes to a new brighter world. As you look at the ocean alone, you can accept the beauty of it.
Dazai opened your small dark world to so many brighter sides.
Without Dazai you would never even dream of something some bright.
This was all because of Dazai....
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(Memory)

"This is what I wanted to show you." Dazai says, as you look at the ocean.
You're left speechless, you've never seen something so pretty.
The ocean, with the sun glistening on it. Truly beautiful.

"Every time I take you out, I want to show you so much more beautiful things. I want to keep making your world brighter." Dazai explains, you look at him confused.
"Why Dazai?" You ask,
"Because you're innocent." Dazai says.
"I'm what?" You say, confused.

"You never asked to join the Port Mafia. Mori just took you away from your childhood hell.... But than you came here and then they created another hell for you."
Dazai explains.
You've never saw the Port Mafia as hell, you saw it as a savior taking you away from that hell...

"I don't see the Port Mafia as a hell. I see it as a savior. A savior from my hell." You explain.
"The Port Mafia is only disguised as an angel." Dazai says. You try to comprehend what he just said.

"Y/n you don't deserve this... you deserve a better brighter world..." Dazai says. He lightly holds your face with a bandage hand. He moves your view towards him.
"You crave a better/brighter world..." Dazai explains, revealing everything about you with just one sentence.

"It's true... You always seem to know everything about me with just one look Dazai." You say with a smile.
"Ha I've just find your existence so interesting. Your value to life... It's just so interesting.." Dazai says.

His whole suicide thing gets you confused a lot but that's what you love about Dazai. You love how you can't figure him out. You always want to understand him more.

"Sometimes when you show me these parts of the world, I feel so small. I want to become something different, something better for this world. But with everything I've done since Mori has taken me in... Can I really..? Do I deserve another chance, when I was already given another chance..?" You say. You let your thoughts out. With Dazai that just seems to happens. Your thoughts always seem to run out.. Almost like if your thoughts are escaping whenever Dazai shows up.

"Each chance gives you different opportunities. There's never an end to the amount of opportunities your given in life." Dazai says. His hair blows in the ocean breeze. You blush.

"But Dazai... now that you practically know everything about me. I've told you everything about my past... do you still consider me interesting? Or am I just like a book now..? Once your finished, you put it away." You ask.
"Y/n, you're always special to me." Dazai answers.

"How can I trust those words?" You ask.
"Because..." Dazai begins, he moves your hair away from your face, he holds your face gently.. he leans in for a kiss but you dodge it, slightly embarrassed.
"Dazai!! We're in public!!" You shout in embarrassment.