Y/n was sent to live with the Zoldycks as a child after Silva and her father arranged for her and illumi to be married.
But can the cold blooded killers fall in love or will hisoka sweep y/n away with his sinister charm?
*warning* will contain lemo...
Boredom. That's all I've experienced since tagging along with Killua and his little friends. Things didn't become interesting until we found a very naked Hisoka. And of course with out shame he stood there. Well endowed flashing his gloriousness with a smile. The grown child bisky was flushed and blushing bright red as she kept her eyes on his manhood.
That's when I realized something was off with me. I would've looked. Grinned and probably made a flirty joke but I didn't. I've thought about it all day and even now as everyone rests I sit away from them as I glance at the stars and battle myself with these thoughts.
"You don't sleep much hmm?~" Hisoka approaches taking a seat beside me.
"Just thinking." I sighed.
"Of"
"You'll just think it's stupid."
"I don't doubt that but humor me. I can't sleep either maybe your worries will bore me to sleep" he smiled.
"Fine" I sighed deeply.
"What no smart remark?"
"I have doubts. About illumi. I love him. I know I do. I just don't know if it's too late. The damage is done." A tear escaped my eyes as I finally said these words out loud. "I'm afraid for once in my life. Afraid that I'm making a mistake. This man shown me nothing but disrespect and making me the laughing stock. How stupid I've been claiming him as my fiancé as he parades himself around with other woman."
"Didn't you do the same ?"
"I did. Because I lacked something. I lacked his attention. And I know this. But he's always had mine. Something inside me tells me to leave him and suffer the consequences because the pain of death would be temporary. Living with this heavy burden in my heart. This uncertainty of wether he can truly make me happy as a husband and the ability to trust him. It physically hurts my heart." I wiped a few tears away "I'm always wondering what's going on when I'm not around and if I could ever live the rest of my life without worry. I want my home and my husband to be my safe space. A place where I don't have to always be on guard. I could relax. But this. We're making progress hisoka. So I don't know why this hurts so much. Why am I worried. I have what I want. Him willing and ready to commit. Why do I feel so .... depressed? I don't expect you to say anything. I know I've kinda rambled but I had to get it out my system. You probably think I'm crazy. An assassin in love with a man who loves sleeping around. An assassin in love at all."
"I take offense~" he said dramatically. "I'm in love myself." He smiled. "Shocking I know. My fiancé, like you and illumi it was an arrangement but she's had my heart ever since we were kids. Only I'm the one who's a bit promiscuous." He shrugged "I'm not married yet and maybe illumi sees it that way as well. But even killers love. But to me it sounds like you don't love yourself enough. Your happiness is dependent on him. You lost yourself along the way and that's why you're depressed. My fiancé loves herself more than she loves me. I often find myself chasing after her when I visit back home."
I don't know what was more shocking the fact that he was engaged or the fact that he's giving decent advice. "Is he with some bimbo? Most likely. But why does that matter when your here with me." He kicked his lips and u couldn't help turn away in disgust. "Hisoka you just told me you were engaged and in love."
" I'm a dog, what can I say. Until my wife finds me and drags me back home I'm free to do as I please. It's tradition after all." He stood up and looked down at me seriously "you have a luscious ass. Have him chase after it for once. And love yourself. You look pathetic crying over a man. You're an assassin. Get it the fuck together."
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