Illumi X Hisoka x reader

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"Cleared my schedule? More like your putting me out of business." I frowned. I felt a bit uneasy. I wanted the affection from him but I couldn't help but think if it's an act. "Before we continue. Can I ask you something?"

Illumi groaned rolling his eyes and sitting up straight on the bed. "I suppose."

"Is this an act?" I blurted out unashamed "there's no need to pretend, I don't mind casual sex. But if your not ready or don't feel for me romantically I rather we take our pace. Even if it's a no strings attached kind of arrangement. I just hate how lately you've became my enemy, and how this expectation made me a bit a jealous. I was ok with our original arrangement at first but I gave to admit that pink haired idiot really got to me."

"Did she really get under your skin or was the real reason to your jealousy me giving someone else my attention?" He looked at me with those large eyes. That man knew me all too well

"Maybe a bit of both." I shrugged

"Elaborate" he crawled behind me on the bed and begun to massage my shoulders. Growing up I would have to beg him to rub my shoulders.

"I guess I can be a brat. So not having your full attention was new to me and I didn't like it." I admitted. It was always illumi and I. And illumi isn't necessarily the social type. He has no need for meaningless friends or casual conversations. I had only been gone a year and when I come back he's sleeping around and being this social butterfly and I didn't like it. Especially because when I came back seeing him again lit this flame inside of me. "And .. I don't know. I see you as mine. Always did. I don't like how someone can stand in front of me and claim what's already mine."

"I did spoil you with my time. I can't really fault you for feeling the way you did. I'd be lying if I said I didn't enjoy the attention. Machi was there because you weren't. I'm a man with needs and at the time where she and I started sleeping together I hadn't seen you in a romantic way."

"When did you start seeing me like that then?" I questioned.

"The night of your birthday. When I left your room at heavens arena."

"Yet you kept your arrangement with machi." I leaned back against his chest and he snaked his large arms around me. Holding me tightly against him.

"Let's not push all the blame on me. If I remember correctly you still have an arrangement with my acquaintance hisoka."

"It's different with you and I. If you were to tell me to stop.. that I'm yours, I would stop. I've expressed how I felt about you many times and continued to receive only half of you."

"This is all new to me." He admitted "we were taught to kill. Not love."

"So you don't love me." I asked.

"I didn't say that.  Because I do. I feel different when I'm around you now. Since that night.  Which is why I don't want to be your enemy. I want you to come home. Figure this out with me." His heart pounded against back despite his voice being so calm.

"And the woman?" I asked.

"Gone if you come back home." He whispered. " stop making me the enemy."

"If I come back home? Meaning they're still around?"

"Can we talk about this when you come home for good ?" He asked getting frustrated.

"What will I come home to?" I asked. Turning over to face him.

"A fiancé." He replied placing lose strands of my hair between his fingers " a partner. Best friend. Lover. And clients who will remain alive."

"And if I never come back?" His eyes darkened as his hands slowly wrapped around my neck squeezing it just tight enough for me to feel excitement, leaning in he kissed my lips "I would kill you and everyone you associate with. Slowly.. and painful. You'll beg me to finish you off while I take my time."

"Honestly," I gasped in a soft voice. My cheeks burned with excitement "I wish you would"

He smirked " I meant it as a threat."

"Can't it be both?" I bit my lip. He stared at me for a brief moment and brought his lips to mine

Illumi has a way of driving me crazy without even trying.