My famous Ex-Boyfriend (Zayn Malik)

Chapter 3

so, Hayley and Zayn or Hayley and Louis?:)

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*HAYLEYS POV*

There i was, kissing Louis Tomlinson. What is wrong with me? I can't do that to Louis, can I ? I can't use him to get over Zayn, but still it feels so good. His lips on mine, he made this kiss feel like pure love. I felt safe with him, i felt better. But it was different than it was with Zayn, when i kissed Zayn it was like a drug,  i loved him, everytime we kissed i had this tingling feeling in my stomach, with Louis i hadn't. But somehow i didn't want the moment to end. I wanted to stay in his arms, finally i felt something else than pain, but wasn't it wrong when it will make him feel pain? 

He broke the kiss and looked into my eyes. He saw that i wasn't sure of what i was doing. 'Louis.. ' i sighed. 'No Lee, its okay, it's my fault.' he whispered looking down. 'I'm not ready.. you're a great guy Lou and you're everything a girl could wish for, but i'm just not ready' i kissed his cheek 'and no, this wont stand between us' 'Thank you' he smiled at me, his smile is so beautiful, why couldn't i have fallen for him, why was it Zayn who took my heart? Louis would never hurt me. 'Should we watch another movie? Uh.. i mean if you don't want me to leave' he said the last part hesitating. 'Of course i don't want you to leave Lou and i would love to watch another movie with you' i gave him a genuine smile and put Transformers in before i went back to the couch and cuddled up to Louis again. And thats exactly why Louis is perfect, i told him that i can't be with him right now and we kissed before, but still he's here holding me tight because he knows i need him right now, what else would a girl want? I fell asleep during the movie, Louis was so comfortable, the warmth of his body, his breathing, his heartbeat, everything about him calmed me down and made me comfortable. 

I wook up because i felt something cold under me, when i opened my eyes i saw that i was in my room, how the hell did i get here? Something next to my bed moved. 'Louis?' i whispered. 'Shh love, go back to sleep everything is okay' he came over an kissed my forehead 'sleep tigt' with that he went to leave my room. 'Louis?' i asked. 'Yes, Lee?' he turned around to face me. 'Could you please stay with me' i looked at him with puppy eyes. 'I don't know love, i mean, you love Zayn and.. i.. uhm' he stuttered. 'Lou, i don't asked you to have sex with me, just lay down beside me, please' oh my god, i didn't really say this, did i? I did and Louis was blushing. 'I didn't mean that Lee!' 'I know, but please stay with me?' i asked one last time. 'Yes' he sighed and came back. 'So Mr.Tomlinson, now you're going to stand there the whole night or will you lay down? i smirked. 'You cheeky little monster' he smiled and took off his shirt and laid down beside me left in only his sweatpants. 'I'm not a monster' i pouted. 'Yes you are, you're a cute little monster and you stole my heart' he whispered and stroked over my hair. 'Lou..' i sighed. 'I know Hayley, don't worry, i'm perfectly fine with the fact that you don't love me' he gave me a warm smile while he ran his fingers over my cheek. 'I don't love you yet' i whispered. 'And i'm willing to wait forever, love' he kissed my forehead again and i fell asleep. 

*ZAYNS POV*

'Where's Louis?' i asked Harry who was sitting on the couch. 'I don't know he got a call and then he left a few hours ago' he answered sounding really tired. 'Do you know who called?' i asked again. 'Yes' was his answer. 'Then tell me?' i gave him a strange look. 'Yes' was his answer again. 'Then who was it Harry?' wow, he started to annoy me. 'Who?' he gave me an questioning look. 'Oh god, go to sleep Harold, really' i sighed and decided to call Louis. No one ansewered, after the third call i gave up and went to bed. 

It was almost 4am but sleep didn't want to come. Hayley was in my mind and she just wouldn't leave it. Now that i saw how much i hurt her i really start asking myself why i did this to her. I had no reason to leave her behind, she gave me everything, she gave me her heart, she loved me and i loved her as well. I just had a bad day and decided that she was too good for me, it was true, she was too good for me, but was that a reason to put her through this painful time? No, it wasn't. Ugh Zayn, why are you so damn stupid? You could still be happy with her. I wondered if she still loved me and what was going on with her and Louis? The look he gave her in the store, it was full of love, was he in love with her? Hopefully not, i don't want drama. It's already enough drama that i caused. I need to get her to talk to me, i need to apologize, she can't refuse it forever, right? Oh yes she can, she's so stubborn. 

After 2 more hours of thinking about her i finally fell asleep, i wish i hadn't because my dream was horrible.