A Chance

Thirteen

Ever since last night I've been sad. I miss Kyle a lot but he hurt me so many times. I needed to get out of there. My mom has been doing better she has an idea of what happened between me and Kyle since i spoke about it ver briefly. I haven't been out of the room since then.

'Knock Knock'

"Come in" i say.

"Hey sweetie"  I smile back and bury my head into my blanket. "Look i know you've been tearing yourself up because of Kyle."

Kyle, Hearing that name makes my heart ache. My eyes start to water.

"I've been through this quite a few times and i've learned how to cope. I never wanted you to experience this because loving is so so short but forgetting is so long." She rubs my back as i start to cry remembering how me and Kyle spent our time together.

Not the fighting or the arguing just the good moments. "I want to tell you this.., My first love  it was so hard to get over and to stop feeling love, but  you love so unabashedly that it takes time. So don't cry because it's over but smile because it happened." I hug my moms waist laying down and my eyes pouring out these hot tears. "Thank you" I manage to get out amidst my cries. She responds by kissing my forehead.

    We stay like that for awhile speaking about other things and how she felt blah blah blah. She ended up leaving when i fell asleep during a movie. It felt like old times. She would be in bed with me and when i was in a deep sleep she would sneak off back until her own bed.

When i was little i had really bad nightmares. They were so vivid i was scared in real life to go to my parents room at night or even during the day. I got over it years and years ago but about a year or so ago i had sleep paralysis. I had no idea what was happening to me except that i couldn't move and that my worst fear not being able to move or to get out the way of danger. I was just laying there still and scared out of my mind. I never told my parents because they always got super scared and over reacted towards most things.

I hadn't been to school but my mom insisted i go tomorrow. I begged her not since it was mass day and i didn't feel like seeing Kyle. I felt that he was doing better than me, maybe i did make the right decision. "Ivy you need to go you've missed too many days" 'fine... but if i feel to much then i'm out.' She scoffed at me and began to make food. She's been doing really good or at least from what i see.
Paris🤍
Hey do you wanna hang out today?
Ivy🪴
Sure, after i eat dinner with my mom
Paris🤍
Kay meet me at the cafe
Ivy🪴
Okayy

"Hey mom i'm gonna see Paris after dinner" 'Okay' I ate the dinner which was chicken and rice kind of boring but it was good. I picked out my outfit and it was a white shirt, black puffer jacket and jeans. I said bye to my mom and drove to the cafe. I listened to some good songs and parked in by the cafe seeing Paris sitting at a table outside. I walked up the curb and she saw me smiling softly, "Hey" She got up and hugged me. 'Hi.' We sat down in silence as i ordered a coffee and a muffin. "I'm sorry Ivy" she blurted "I'm sorry for being the shittiest best friend ever. I was so distant and you've been through hell while i was gone, I'm sorry i really missed you but i broke up with him we weren't a good match." "Paris it's fine really all that matters is that we're good now" I said holding her hand. She laughed and hugged me. "So how's the live life" i rolled my eyes and said "Not good Paris not well." 'What happened?' "Well me and kyle got into another fight and he cheated on me and i broke up with him officially and haven't spoken to him since." She looked at me in shock. 'Holy shit' "Well my life is never smooth so.." "Wow what was the argument about." She questioned. "He wanted to have sex but i didn't want to and he kept trying" I started to huff feeling like crying "Oh ivy it's okay, He doesn't deserve you." 'But.. But i still love him" i cried. She caressed my hair and i finally felt better. "God was this a sad meet up." She laughed and said "Hey my parents want me home but i'll see you tomorrow in the parking lot, yeah?" "Yeah" We hugged each other goodbye and waved and we both left the area.
On the way back home i think about him, Kyle. I should have never gave him a chance i thought he would be good a change a good one. Boy was i wrong or was i? I still really like him but i know it's best for us not to be together.
The Next Morning...
I woke up a little early to workout and eat breakfast. After eating my toast and coffee i went back upstairs to take a shower. I put my uniform in piling my skirt up a bit and putting my hair into a ponytail. I grabbed my jacket since it was chilly and left to school. I parked seeing Paris in her car. I walked up to her car and she smiled unlocking the doors. "Good morning" I said "Good morning to you too miss happy" I rolled my eyes and we sat talking for a bit until we needed to go to mass. We walked in sitting by Jenna. I look around my eyes wandering and i lock eyes with Kyle. I quickly focus on something else whispering to Paris about whatever i could think of. I can feel him staring at me but i don't want to see him or talk to him. "Hey guys i'm having a party tonight at my house at 8 so you should definitely come" Jenna whispered to us "Um i'll go if Paris goes" 'Im going' Paris says. We both smile and get in with our day at school.

This chapter is kinda boring idk tell me any suggestion if you have any