Obsession

Chapter 50

I've spent the last two months of my life running from Kai, or being terrified that he was following me. Now that I want to run into him, he's nowhere to be found.

Maybe he's starting to grow weaker? Maybe that dark lust that once controlled him is running out and he'll soon return to normal?

But I'm taking no chances. I have to earn his trust so I can figure out what the hell he is. Now that I know he's passed on some of his dark energy to me and I've passed it on to Leo, I'm more determined than ever to get answers.

I walk into Leo's apartment and he looks up from his laptop at me. "Still nothing?"

"No," I groan, taking off my raincoat.

He watches me as I sit next to him. I can't meet his eyes though. Lately, it seems like we've been so hot and cold with each other. We've been through a lot and it's got us questioning everything. I'm starting to wonder if he's going to stick around once this is all over, or if he'll run. I wouldn't blame him if he did. I've put him through hell. His life was perfect before I came along and turned him into a monster.

"Do you think maybe he knows what we're up to?" he asks after a while.

I lean back and sigh. "Maybe? Or maybe he's not able to just appear and disappear like he was before. Maybe...he finally mated..."

"That would be great, but...I don't think he's trying to mate with anyone but you."

I don't want to talk about this with Leo of all people. The fact that I lost my virginity to Kai instead of Leo plagues me every day. Had I just waited...I was only days from finding out who Kai really was. Or maybe that's what it took for me to realize it? After all, his need to mate seems to be at the core of all this mess. The night I slept with him is when it all started.

My mind starts to drift back to that night, reminding me again of just how stupid I was. I was ready to give myself to him, even though I hadn't yet taken the time to get to know him. I just assumed because he'd lived next door for so long, I already knew everything there was to know about him.

I couldn't have been more wrong.

"Are you okay?" Leo asks, pulling me out of my thoughts.

I blink a couple of times and nod. "Yeah, sorry."

He turns his attention back to his laptop and for a while, I just watch him. He's been right next to me every day, but lately, it feels like we're drifting farther and farther away from each other. I hate it. Especially when it feels like Leo's all I really have sometimes.

I can't lose him. I can't let him slip away. I can't keep pushing and pulling, expecting him to just stick around and deal with me at my worst. I need to take care of him too. I need to remind him that I'm grateful that he's taking such good care of me.

So without warning, I push him back against the sofa and climb on top of him. He looks surprised, but he doesn't object. Instead, his hands grip my hips tightly and his breath quickens as if he's been running.

I lean forward and kiss him, giving him all I've got. He melts underneath my touch, moaning against my lips.

"What's gotten into you?" he whispers, smiling.

"I love you," I whisper back, making his smile grow even wider.

"It's been a while since you've said that."

"I know, and I'm so sorry. But I do love you. More than you could ever know," I say, kissing him again.

His hands move up and down my back, pulling me closer to him as he deepens our kiss. He gently pushes me back against the sofa and climbs on top of me, moving from my lips, down my neck and across my collar bone.