That's Just How Life Goes!!

Chapter 4

"We will get married tomorrow." I heard Arsalan say which took my breath away. I felt suffocated. I leaned on the nearby wall while tears kept falling from my eyes. I could hear the argument going on inside. I straightened myself and walked fast to the stairs. I reached the terrace and couldn't hold anymore. I slid down the wall in my hiding spot and cried myself to sleep.
I woke up to faint voice and caresses on my hand. "I am so sorry Jaan. I know I am hurting you alot but I have to do this. I wish you could understand me. Please try to understand me jaan. I can't leave her alone. She has no one in this world." I opened my eyes and looked at him in the eyes, tears continuously leaking from my eyes. I could see his eyes water too. I wiped the tears that fell from his eyes and cupped his face.
" Please Arsalan don't do this to me.. I have really come to love you alot. Please don't do this to me. Please just please." I pleaded.
He kept his hands on mine which were on his face.
"Please try to understand me meri jaan. She needs me. She doesn't have anyone in this world. My friend gave her responsibility to me while dying. He trusted me with her ." he said.
"We will take care of her. I will. Everyone will. She won't have anything to complain about. Don't you trust us?" I tried to convince.
"Maham he asked me to give her and her child my name. I promised him." he carried on making my temper rise. I got up.
"And what about me.? Am I not your responsibility? our children not your responsibility? Are we nothing to you now?" I shouted frustrated. Why can't he just understand damn it? We could help her anyhow. He doesn't need to marry her.
"I am there for you always. I love you mahi. But Zoya also need-"he started but now I got irritated by just hearing her name from his mouth. I shouted" stop it. "
He got up and tried to hold me but I pushed him back. I took a deep breath and began. This is enough now. This has to end. He has to choose.
" Arsalan, if you want to marry her, divorce me."
"Maham" he shouted coming closer to me.
I moved back.
"Choose Arsalan. It's either me or her." I said.
"I can't Maham. I love you but I can't leave her all alone in this world.-" he started again the same can't leave her alone in this world. I am frustrated now.
"No one is leaving her alone in this world damn it. I said we would take care of her. I will treat her as my sister. -" I tried explaining sighing irritatedly.
"you can still treat her as sister after our marriag-" he said but I cut him off. I can't even listen him say getting married to someone else. How could he say that so easily. Is this his love which he declared very proudly? It's a lost battle already. He is not going to back down. Now I am really thinking if he actually himself wants to marry her and not because of his friend. I have been saying we will take care of her but he is determined to marry her at any cost. I sighed. There's no point in saying anything now.
" Okay I got it you are going to marry her no matter what." I said and tried to go but he held my wrist.
"please understand me Maham." he pleaded but did he listen to my plead?
I gently removed his hand from my wrist and said without turning to him "I do."
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I am standing outside the door of our- Arsalan's room to try to convince him one last time. I just can't see him with someone else. I love him so much. He is just not getting it. I took a deep breath to calm myself and raised my hand to open the door but stopped hearing voices from inside.
"You don't have to do this Arsalan. I will be fine." I heard Zoya say. What the hell is she doing in my room.
"I promised him Zoya."Arsalan said. I sighed.
" What about Maham? She needs you. "Zoya said.
" She has our whole family to take care of her. But you don't have anyone. "I heard Arsalan. I just stood numb for a second. I gathered my courage and opened the door fully.
" It's true I have everyone to look after me but I just needed my husband. But unfortunately I don't have one anymore. "I said and quickly left before anyone could say anything.
I ran to dadi jani's room and cried in her lap. How could he not know that I only need him? Is my love not worthy to fight for? Was his love so weak? I don't know about him but I can't let this go. I have my babies to think about. I will not let him marry her. He is mine. I will beg him again. One last time. Yes I should try one last time.
I quickly got up and went towards the living room to find him signing and closing the lid of the pen. I could see my world shatter right there and soon darkness consumed me.
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