That's Just How Life Goes!!

Chapter 11

"I will come after changing my clothes." I said as Zayn took the kids in his house to change and came inside remembering what happened outside.
. When I reached outside I saw Zayn playing with water pipe with kids. I shook my head "He becomes a child with them. " I said smiling at them.
"He sure does. Sometimes I actually question if we have 3 kids" Khala ammi said laughing making me laugh with her. Suddenly water was thrown in our way. We both shrieked and saw Zayn pointing the water pipe at us and kids laughing. I looked at khala ammi and saw her already looking at me. I nodded and then we all started playing with water.
I shook my head smiling and entered inside my house.
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I was looking at Zayan and Hania playing with Arsalan. It's been almost 20 days since he showed up at my house for the first time. He has been coming daily since then and playing with kids. He also tried to talk me through it but I didn't budge. He says he will try to awaken those feelings in me which are buried deep into my heart. But I know he won't because I actually don't have those feelings in me now. I myself am surprised that I don't love him now the way I did but that's how it is. He even tried to talk about Zoya but I didn't let him continue.

Kids have grown comfortable with him now but not that close. Like last time he got a few toys for them but they looked at Zayn asking for permission to take them. I saw his face fall on that. He is actually trying hard to grow a bond with them but their relationship with Zayn is on another level. He can't compare to him.

Zayn is a bit vary of him. And I could relate to him because even I am worried about what Arsalan is going to do. But then I talked to him and he assured me that he won't force me to do anything I don't want to. As he is confident I will agree on my own will which is not going to happen.

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"Um Mahi." I heard Arsalan so I turned around to see him.
"Uh um I actually saw kid's story book" he said and I looked at him confused.
"Why do they have His name?" he asked clearing my confusion. I sighed and sat on the sofa opposite him.
"You know the moment I held them for the first time I promised myself that I will provide them with the best I could. But suddenly I realized that I won't be able to give them a basic thing that every child has which is their father. That was the moment when I actually started questioning my decision of leaving everything behind. I got scared thinking what would I answer when they will ask me for their father. But look at Allah's mercy. That question never came. They never asked me because they already had a father. Zayn has always been their for both of my kids even more than me. I could actually say that he loves them as much as I do, if not more . "I said feeling grateful for everything Allah has blessed me with. Allah has surely been merciful to me. He took something but he gave me my precious babies.
I looked at Arsalan to see his emotionless face.
" I started getting pain at the airport. Zayn helped me to hospital and has never left since then. His condition was very bad as if he was delivering the babies and not me. He actually cried." I chuckled remembering nurse's words.
"Everyone in the hospital thought he is the father looking at his condition and took the details from the form which he filled in hurry and worry and made birth certificate. And I wasn't really happy to think about you so I ignored that and it remained that way. "I explained.
" I will change it now. "he said.
" Arsalan, they are just 4. Their brains won't be able to understand this situation. For them Zayn is their father. Has always been. If you just drop a bomb on them it would affect their mind and health too. "I tried to explain.
He was about to say something but stopped hearing a knock on the door. I went to open it and saw Zayn looking worried.
" What happened Zayn? Why do you look so worried? "I asked.
" Maham. My uncle is in hospital. Please go and stay with ammi, I have to go to the hospital. I will call you when he will be stable till then don't inform ammi about this situation. "he explained and left as soon as he saw me nodding.
I turned back to see Arsalan
" I need to go. "I said walking inside to take my phone.
" I will come with you. "he said following me. I looked at him and raised my eyebrow but he just shrugged. I ignored him and left taking my phone with me. I locked the door from inside and went out to Zayn's house through garden door.
After almost an hour I got a call from Zayn saying that his uncle is not fine and maybe khala ammi would like to meet him atleast once. So he asked me to take khala ammi to the hospital.
And I did the same.
All this while Arsalan tagged along. Khala ammi asked about him but I just said to talk about it later.
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