That's Just How Life Goes!!

Chapter 20

Zayn's POV

" I never even intended to let you know about my feelings but now that you know I want to confess everything. I never intended to hurt you or wish you any bad. Honestly I don't know myself when I actually started to have feelings for you. I fell in love with Hania and Zayan. I always thought to keep you close so that I can be close to the kids. I just felt that instant connection with them. No reason. Later on both of them become my life and I could not think about my life without them. I started feeling responsible for them as a father. Trust me it just happened. I didn't even realise. I knew we have to be good friends so that we can provide the kids with all the love and happiness. Thanks to you, you never made me and ammi feel like outsiders. So we also didn't feel the need to maintain that limited or formal cordial relationship . You became family without any hesitation. " I paused before continuing
" I didn't have any bad thoughts about you. It all just started with wanting to keep the kids with me and in the process I just fell for their mother too.
" I stopped chuckling.
" You guys are really something. You three have me hooked without any effort . "
She sighed.
" Zayn for me you have always been the father of my kids. I never felt otherwise. I know what you feel for the kids. I can literally see stars in your eyes when you are with them."
She chuckled. I smiled passing my hand thru my hair.
" But we don't have to get married to be parents to our children Zayn. I don't want you to get married to me for the fear that someday I will or anyone else for that matter will take the kids away from you. It's your name on their birth certificate, remember?" She chuckled.
I smiled.
" I expected this . But I am pretty sure about my feelings Maham. I can't mistake my feelings for years. And before you think that I deserve someone better then let me tell you for me you are the best. Then how can there be anyone better than you.  I can never be with anyone else. Even if you don't agree then too . " I took a deep breath.
" It's either you or no one else. Now it's upto you.  Don't think about anything like you owe me or anything. Because relationship based on that will never work . And you know me , your NO will not change anything in our lives. But your YES is all I wish for." I stood up to walk into the house.
" Will you cry if I say no?" I heard her asking me  . I stopped turning around.
" No" I replied gulping. She must be making sure not to hurt me before rejection. I looked down .
" Why?" I looked up confused.
" You just professed your unconditional love for me and you say you won't be affected if I reject your feelings?"
" You don't have to worry about that Maham. I will be fine."
" But you said you wish to hear Yes from me?"
" Umm. I do. But if it's what you wish for too. "
" What do you think I want?"
" Huh You don't want me?"
" You want me to not want you?"
" Huh?"
" But you said you wish for me to want you"
" Umm I want you? I mean I wish you?"
What is she saying. My mind is totally confused.
She chuckled. I looked up at her.
She walked towards me
" Maham Zayn .Does it sound nice? "
I looked at her stunned. Does it -?
Did she just?
" Do you mean - like you ugh you agree?" I stuttered
" What do you think?" She smiled at me.
I laughed jumping. I moved to hug her but stopped. I have to wait for some more time.
" Princess. Buddy" I shouted . They have to be the first ones I will share this happiness with.
They came running to me.
I hugged them both . Ohh what if I can't hug their mother for now.
" Your mother agreed"
They squealed and started jumping and laughing.
We three did some wierd dance making Maham laugh at us.

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I entered my room which is now ours - mine and Maham. I smiled taking a deep breath. I saw her standing beside the window looking at the sky. I stood beside her. I maintained the distance not wanting to demand more . Having her in my room as my wife itself is more than I ever dreamt of. I am super happy with this.
She looked at me and smiled. I smiled back .
" Zayn , I have accepted you as my husband. Not just for the world or the sake of it but with all my heart. "
I gulped understanding the meaning behind her words .
" Are you sure?" I asked
She chuckled and pulled the lapels of my sherwani making me bend down till her height.
Then she gave me peace. She kissed my forehead. I never felt sich peaceful before except my ammi.
I can see there is no hesitation in her. So I moved closer and placed my lips on hers. When I felt she was okay, I started moving them and then things got heated up.

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Maham's POV

" Zayn Bhai, your jaw will start paining if you don't stop smiling now." Ali snorted at Zain while I shook my head smiling.
Zain has been smiling and laughing like a lunatic since he got up in the morning. Actually since I said YES, he has lost his mind and today he is literally behaving like a mentally retarded person.
I looked around at the dining table to see everyone teasing Zayn ,even the kids. I sent a prayer to Allah to always keep us all safe and happy.

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"So, surely with hardship comes ease”

And alhamdulillah I have got my ease. I pray that everyone gets their ease.