Insomnia || Jeongchan

~•Don't know what to do without you•~

"I can't sleep without you. Just endless nights of hating myself."

Felix woke up, after a long comfy nap. He felt warm, too warm, as if a heating pad was beside him. So, he decided to just open his eyes, but only to be meet with Hyunjin beside him with his arms wrapped around his waist while scrolling through his phone.

Hyunjin noticed the facial expressions Felix had and that he is finally awake. "You're awake." The black haired boy said as he ran his hands through Felix's hair locks. "Did you sleep well?"

Felix nodded his head, he had no idea why was the taller boy cuddling with him.

"You fell asleep while we where cuddling." Hyunjin said.

"W-why are you cuddling with me though? I thought I'd wake up and you'll be gone." Felix truthfully said, a worried expression on his face and Hyunjin could see it.

"Why would I? You are very warm and I like cuddling." Hyunjin said with a smile.

"You don't feel awkward? With me?" Felix said, hope filled us tone.

Hyunjin shook his head as saying no. "In fact, I was meaning to ask you something."

Felix gulped. "Well, yeah s-sure." A million thought races through Felix's head, he couldn't focus and he felt nervous. His stomach was doing back flips and he felt like he could faint any minute.

"Well... I just wanted to say that I find you very cute and I love hanging out with you, well obviously cause we're best friends since forever. I don't wanna lose that."

Felix heard this and he felt heart broken. Was this rejection? It felt like that to him. But that's better than having an awkward friendship with Hyunjin. Or maybe it will get awkward later? Felix feared that.

"But..." Hyunjin started again. Felix focused his eyes back to Hyunjin, nervous and curious as to what he might say next.

"I- well...How do I put this into words?" Hyunjin laughed nervously while scratching the back of his head.

"You don't have to continue, I get it. We're best friends and that's about it. I also don't wanna ruin that obviously." Felix said while playing with his fingers nervously.

"No!" Hyunjin suddenly said, which made Felix's expressions like he about to cry. "Well actually yes but not quite." Felix wore a puzzled expression.

"I... I like you." Hyunjin said while looking down at his knees. "...a lot."

Felix opened his mouth in shock. How?! How and why would Hyunjin like him?? It didn't seem real at all to the boy with freckles.

Hyunjin didn't like the silence so be looked up at the boy only to see him in shock. "Are you okay, Lixie?" He asked softly.

"You like me??" Felix asked in a very high voice. Hyunjin bounced in pain because of his ears. "Lixie! Ouch!"

Felix panicked and grabbed Hyunin softly and apologised. "Omg, I'm an idiot."

Then Hyunjin looked at him, there faces were so close. "Can you be my idiot?"

Felix's face started displaying shades or red and pink. His heart was racing and his mouth became dry.

"A-are you sure?"

"Yes." Hyunjin answered immediately.

"Then why didn't you kiss me back?"

"I was in shock, and you immediately ran out without letting me say something or even just grab you to kiss you again." Hyunjin explained and glanced at his kissable pink lips. "So, can I please kiss them now?"

Felix was unable to reply, it felt like a dream and he felt so light like he could faint any moment. But it felt right, so right.

Felix nodded his head, which made Hyunjin smiled and inch closer.

~~

Earlier, Jeongin left to go see Chan. It's been a while and Chan didn't call. He thought it might be because his dad was still there, but Jeongin was worried so he had to go there to make sure.

And as he got closer and his dorm room door was a few away from him, he saw Chan's dad leave.

So, Jeongin hid away until he was gone completely and immediately rushed to Chan. He knocked, but he got no answer, which made the younger worried. He knocked again, still nothing.

"Chan, it's me. Open up." Jeongin said in hopes he wasnt responding because he thought it was someone else so he didn't want to open.

"I'm busy right now." Chan said from behing the door. Jeongin could notice how his voice wasn't like his usual one. It was as if he was holding back tears, or just not alright in general.

"I don't care! Let me in." Jeongin insisted.

"Can you please just leave me alone! Just go." Chan replied with seems like an angry voice, but Jeongin was smarter than to buy into this. Chan just wanted to keep his problems to himself and receive no help, but Jeongin wasn't gonna let that happen, not on his watch.

An idea came to Jeongin. He's gonna pretend he knocked too hard and hurt his arm, hoping Chan will actually open the door.

So Jeongin knocked a hard knock and said a loud 'Ocuh'.

"Fuck! This hurts!" Jeongin pretended.

The door immediately opened, and there he was. With his messy curly hair, and worried face. "I told you to leave, but you're so stubborn." Chan said as he towards Jeongin and grabbed his arm that he thought the younger hurt.

Jeongin grabbed back his hand and dragged the older into his own room.

"I pretended to get hurt so I could go in." Jeongin simply said.

Chan sighed and sat down on his couch. "So stubborn." He mumbled.

"I am, yes." Jeongin sat down beside the older. "I know you aren't alright."

Chan looked at him, their eyes meet and he could tell the younger was genuine, he always was.

Chan then glanced at the younger's lips, he got so caught up there and forget about reality. Jeongin took notice, so his face was pinkish.

"How come you always here for me?" Chan asked, still his gaze fixed on the younger's pair of lips.

"Cause I can read you well, and I like hanging out with you." Jeongin honestly replied. He has this feeling of always wanting to be beside the older.

Chan looked at Jeongin's eyes, and he could only see the truth. So he glanced back at  his lips and got closed and closer and until their pair of lips met.

At that moment, the only thing Chan felt was love. And he wished it would never go away.

I wrote this chapter to avoid studying for my final lmaoooo

It's unedited too