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chapter thirty-seven

One week later

"Baby, I'm so sorry." I say touching Drake's face. "I know how happy you were."

He looks at me and kisses my hand. "I'm just glad you're okay. You scared the shit out of me." He said. "I thought I lost you."

I smile, "you'll never lose me.." I say softly.

These past few days have been crazy. Drake and I loss the baby and it's been really hard on the both of us. But mainly Drake, I know how excited he was to be a dad for the second time. He really wants another baby, a boy to be exact. My family has been kind of distant because they're letting me deal with my household right now. It's hard but i know that we'll get through it together.

"I don't want you to think this is your fault." Drake said.

"It is.. I was stressing myself out about the whole thing and I'm- I'm sorry." I shake my head and sigh deeply.

"I'm gonna go, get some coffee. I'll be back." Drake said standing up and stretching.

I smile somberly and lay my head on my pillow. "Okay." I say blinking slowly.

I think that Drake and I are at the point in our relationship where we can get through almost anything together. But right now it's a little hard. We just lost our baby and I don't really know how to deal with it. If I'm being honest I'm really scared of all this. Everything has happened so fast I don't know if I'm strong enough to deal with it.

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"How do you feel?" Grandma asked she brushed my hair. "Your hair is growing like your mother's." She said.

I smile softly, "I'm doing okay.. but what made you come all the way here?" I asked referring to the hospital. It's pretty far out from where we're staying in the Hamptons.

"I was just talking to your parents and they expressed to me how they didn't know if you felt like talking to anybody." She told me.

"So they sent you to test the waters?" I ask jokingly.

"Yeah." Grandma said nodding. "Pretty much." She chuckled.

"Grandma, do you think I would've been a good mom?" I ask turning my head around to see her face.

She looked at me and brushed my hair a few times. "I think you would've been scared at first, but pretty soon, you would've got it together." She said.

"I think that's true." I say nodding. "But I don't think I was ready to be a mom, I'm kind of— glad, that what happened happened, so that I wouldn't have had to make an irrational decision."

"Valencia, you weren't considering an abortion were you?" Grandma asked looking at me in my eyes.

I gulp and look down at my hands. They were getting a little sweaty. "Yeah- I was. But just because I was scared!" I say defending myself.