Picking up the pieces - a JeanKasa story

Chapter 9 - Bottled

Mukasa's pov  

It was me, Annie, Christa, Yimir and Sasha, we were in sasha's room sat in a circle about to start playing spin the bottle.

"So who's spinning first?" Sasha asked

"I'll go" I said. Sasha smiled as I spun the bottle. When it stopped I looked up and it pointed up to Annie. I couldn't stop myself from smirking now

"Out of everything what do you like best about Armin? " she was bound to get somewhat embarrassed over that question. We waited for a bit and the she began to blush.

" his sincerity, like I could get 100 compliments from other boys but they would mean nothing compared to 1 from him." tears shot out of my eyes and everyone else's from that answer.

"what the fuck? Guys why are you crying? Mikasa even you're crying too?!" 

"We're sorry it's just, you're answer, it was just so moving" Sasha spoke for all of us so we just tried to stop crying. Annie comforted us and we continued with the game. Annie spun the bottle next

"Sasha, how long have you liked Connie and what made you sure you did?" She looked down and began playing with her fingers

"when was I sure I liked him? Probably 4 months ago, when I got diagnosed with diabetes, I fainted and when I woke up I was in a hospital bed then I found out he got me there, Jean was dealing with some other thing but if he was there instead of Connie I might be crushing on him instead "it took I had to stop the tears from gushing out but even that wasn't enough. The tears came rolling down and we all cried for a while.

"Mikasa's turn, what should I ask her" Yimir smirked "do you have a crush and if so who?" what is it with these two part questions

"can I answer something else?" I asked. "NO!!" that one was inevitable.

I grabbed a soda and downed it I took a breath

"My crush. Is Jean." their Jaws dropped and I knew I was going to regret this because they all started showering me with questions like.

"when?" "why?" "how?"

"guys, guys one at a time I can't answer all of you at once" I knew trying to stop them was impossible at this point but I could at least try and calm them down.

"Well I wanna know when you were going to tell us." Yimir said.

"I was going to tell Sasha first because I wanted to know what she'd think about it, seeing as they were basically family." the girls gave a nice 'aaawww' at how platonically close she was to Jean.

"Tell me when and why" Sasha said. I still couldn't tell if she was okay with it or not, I guess I'll have to ask her later. I smiled and took a drink.

"Well, when we met he was sat next to me in science and our teacher told us to get to know each other a bit as we are going to be partners for the whole year. When introduced ourselves to the other I noticed that he was beat up. Like really beat up. But whenever I'd asked about it he'd change the subject. I got him to let me treat his injuries in the end. We went to the far infirmary so nobody would see us, somehow I forgot my phone int he classroom so I told him I'd be right back and not to move. Me being on the track team I thought I'd be quick. " looked down and saw the tears hit my hands " I wasn't quick enough though. When I came back I found him on the floor shivering just like he was today. I did all I could from there. He woke up a few minutes later and we talked about him, his life all that shit" I looked up to see tears in all of their eyes, even Yimir.

The next bit will probably break them but I have to go through with it. I looked up at them for the last bit

" I know he may look like your typical egotistical bastard but that guy is a jigsaw with pieces in other boxes. I just want to be the one to put him back together " they were in tears. I wiped my eyes and felt Sasha tackle me to the ground

"I'm glad he found you and I can't wait to see you two together" why is it we cry every round.

"guys wait" I said "about what I said earlier, there's problem." they were all really confused at what I had just said "the day we met. He got in a fight with Eren, they hate each other"

"So? Just because he hates Eren doesn't mean he will hate you." Christa cut me off

"that's the thing" I said "he doesn't know I'm Eren's sister and I don't want to ruin what we have or what we might have in the future by him finding out" I looked up to see their faces but they all had unreasonable reactions.

"I know it's selfish but I really do like this guy and everytime we spend more time I find myself liking him even more!" they all looked each other and back at me

"considering what you have told us we would say it's definitely selfish" leave to Yimir to bring your hopes down even more.

"but if your that in love with him and he's that in love with you then we don't think he'll mind" leave it to Christa to bring your hopes back up.

"I don't think he is in love with me though" I started playing with my fingers again

"I'm not gonna lie it's gonna take time and commitment especially now more than ever but if what you've told us and what he's told me is true then you're already half way there"

If he's going to keep his feelings bottled I might just have to open it before it bursts.