I heard another knock on my door. Nilakasan ko lalo yung volume ng TV ko so just I can block the knocking sounds, but he's so persistent
"Bea please open the door! I won't go hangga't hindi mo ako kinakausap… Bea please!"
Maraming beses pa siyang kumatok and sumigaw. I grabbed the pillow beside me and threw it on the other couch out of frustration. Pinatay ko yung TV and decided to show up
When I opened the door, nakita ko si Thirdy na nakacrumple sa floor. He immediately stood up and hugged me
"Bea I'm so sorry..." he's sobbing. I didn't return the hug. Instead, I made a light motion to signal na irelease niya ako sa pagkakayakap niya, and nakuha niya naman
"How many times pa ba ako makakatanggap ng sorry mo Thirdy? Iinform mo naman ako para mahanda ko yung sarili ko…" I said monotonously
Hindi siya nakasagot. So I turned around and enter the unit, not minding kung sinundan niya ba ako o hindi. Pumunta ako sa kitchen to get a bottle of water from the fridge
Apparently, sumunod siya sa'kin and umupo sa bar stool. He just watched me as I drink my water
"What?" I asked. He shook his head and formed a small smile in the corner of his mouth
"I just realized, being here with you at this moment suddenly made everything feel better…"
Gusto ko. Gusto kong maniwala. Gusto kong umasa
"So bakit? Bakit mo nagagawa yung mga ganung bagay Thirds? Am I not worthy? Kasi it feels like you can shut me out anytime and come back when it's convenient for you..."
He was taken aback. He cleared his throat and moved towards the table
"Walang kulang sa binibigay mo Bei. It's more than enough, and I can feel that love everyday... Hays I want to defend myself pero I don't even know how. Sa sobrang busy ko sa ibang bagay, nakakalimutan ko na yung isang taong bumubuo sa pagkatao ko."
His eyes were serious, but I still don't want to dive into that. I forced a smile and hinawakan ko yung kamay niya habang nasa kabilang side ako ng table
"Can I have a request Thirds?" he squeezed my hand and nodded.
"Kahit ngayong araw lang, iprioritize mo naman ako. Ako naman yung unahin mo…" gusto ko nang umiyak pero pinigilan ko yung sarili ko
"You don't have to ask for it, kasi yun talaga yung gagawin ko. C'mon, alis tayo…" hinatak niya ako papunta sa door
"Teka nakapambahay lang ako!" I complained
"Okay lang yan. San car keys mo?"
"You did not bring your car?"
"Coding ako ngayon…" I shrugged and kinuha ko na lang yung purse ko sa rack behind the door
"Oh here..." abot ko sa kanya nung keys
Nag elevator na kami pababa. Tahimik lang ako habang nakatayo beside him. I feel… odd? I sighed and napansin niya yun
"You okay?" I just nodded and smiled tapos binalik niya na tingin niya sa harap. Before, he would hold my hand to calm me down. Pero ngayon, he just stood there and did nothing. Parang tensed rin siya? Idk really. Maybe it's all in my head
Pagbukas ng door ng elevator, nauna na siyang lumabas. Sumunod na lang ako and grabbed my phone para hindi naman ako mukhang awkward
Binuksan niya yung car door ng passenger seat para makasakay ako. So I did, and tumakbo siya papunta sa kabila. He started the engine and we made our way
