Under My Skin // KYLO REN FANFIC 18+

Wait For Me

"You shouldn't even be alive," Ben states, staring at me from the other corner of his quarters. The slick white walls were definitely not what I was expecting from him - and neither was being dragged all the way across the cruiser and ushered into his quarters like some sort of secret pet that's he's trying to hide.

"I escaped." Every fibre in my shaking body wants to stare him deep in the eye, to feel that force connection that seems to spark every time our energies collide. 

"How?" Ben's voice is deep and firm but his words flow like honey out of his lips. He begins a stride towards me and I'm not sure what's louder - his footsteps on the metal floor or my heart thumping in my chest. His presence is only about a meter away and the energy shared between us is sparking. I meet his eyes. My tongue feels like it's swelling up in my throat and I don't think that I could ever tear my eyes away from his now that they've met. "Don't be afraid," the change in dialogue is shocking, but his expression is still firm. 

"I'm not afraid of you, Ben," my fingertips are beginning to turn white with how hard they're digging into the hem of my shirt. That wasn't entirely a lie. I'm not afraid of Ben. His energy shifts. 

"Ben Solo is dead, Gwen, just as you should be!" all of the sudden an exponential force coats my entire body, down to my bones, pushing me into the wall behind me. Something cracks and I'm not sure if it's me or the wall. Now when I look in his eyes all I see is the darkness that's slowly consuming him. He drops me to the floor, a yelp escaping my throat. A small light flashes at the entrance to his quarters, catching his attention. For a split second his eyes turn and his attention shifts. Without even really thinking I extend my fingertips towards the large man before me and feel everything that I've been holding back. Everything that I've been hiding to keep myself alive.The Force in its entirety.

The space around him moves to allow space for his body as I send it towards the ground. I scramble to my feet, finding my footing and taking on a defensive stance in preparation. Except, I'm not prepared at all as I hear a small sigh coming from him. Clutching his stomach, he pulls himself into a sitting position, his lightsaber clattering down next to him.

"You're just as strong as I remember," a small light flickers across his eyes, almost indistinguishable to those not attuned to their surroundings. "I remember everything about you, Gwen," my chest tightens. "I could never forget."

A screen within his quarters suddenly flashes to life, the General's face appearing, saying something that I couldn't possibly catch over the ringing in my ears. He didn't forget me...Within moments Ben is back on his feet, lightsaber by his side. He turns towards a chest and pulls out a black bundle of fabric, tossing it towards me.

"I'm not done with you. Shower and change, I can't stand the sight of those uniforms," he walks up to the door, opening it before turning back to me and catching my eye. "Wait for me." and with that, he's gone.