HEARTLESS //HS

Chapter 30

'She 
She lives in daydreams with me 
She's the first one that I see
And I don't know why
I don't know who she is '

She~by the one and only Harry Styles

Thea Hayden

Harry's been acting really strange today, extra affectionate . Not that I mind ,I'm just very confused as to why.

I just got off my shift at the diner and he said he wanted to have some lunch with me because  we haven't seen each other since last weekend which was when we went to that waterfall. We never went to the other destination he had in mind because he said that this was so much better, which I agreed to even thought I didn't know what the other one was. 

"Hi ,baby" I peck his lips the go to sit down across from him in the booth and and put fries on the table. "Hi princess." he smiles but doesn't make eye contact with me . 

"Harry, what's wrong ." I take his hand in mine and starts making mindless patterns on it, he lets out heavy breath. I feel like he needs some reassurance, so that's what I'm gonna do, "Harry, baby. Whatever it is you can tell me." I try to get him to look at me but it doesn't work. "You love me, right?" he states while still looking down at our hands, where is is this coming from? "Of course, no question." I squeeze his hand and he looks up with a glassy look in his eyes. "Could you um , maybe say it for me." she asks while scrunching his nose, this man makes me fall in love more and more with him every day. "I love you, Harry. With all I am." and he nods.

"Okay , I didn't tell you something." he admits which confuses me. "Well, what didn't you tell me?" I question and he brings his other hand on top of our own that are already locked. "Do you remember the first time you face-timed Kara with me?" he asks and I search my brain for that memory because it was so long ago, before my birthday even. We were here at the diner the first time I talked to her. I nod and he continues, "And do you remember the girl she said is staying with her?" he lets out. 

'Yeah , I remember . Genevieve ,right?" he nods and locks his green eyes with my own. "Yeah, Genny, uh-Genevive." he corrects himself. Genny? Why did her call her that if he barely knows her?

"Well, I didn't tell you that she's kind of an ex of mine." he confesses and I widen my eyes and hitch breath at first. "Okay." I say because I really don't know what else to say at the moment.

"Okay?" he questions and looks like he's seen a ghost. "Yes,Okay. Harry we both have pasts we aren't proud of. I'm not worried about an old family friend ex , from what ? Highschool?" I question and he nods. "Harry,baby." I stand up to go sit on his side of the both and take his cheeks into my hands.

"If I got jealous over every girl you slept with ,how many girls would I be jealous of exactly?" I question. He looks up at  me with a tight lip smile and breaths out, "A lot." and looks back down but I bring his face up to peck his lips, "Harry, I love you, all of you. Including your past. I'm not gonna let one little white lie get in the way of our relationship. Do I think you should've told me at first, yes." by that, he looks frightened. 

"But I'm not mad, one bit. I'm surprised you haven't ditched me yet, with all my baggage and trauma. " and that angers him. "Do not say that, baby. You can't control your past." he says and I smile because I just said that to him three seconds ago and he realizes and says , "Shit." under his breath. 

"I'm not mad, green eyes."I shake my head and bring him in for a hug. He sighs in relief and wraps his arms around my back and brigs his face into the crook of my neck and starts peppering kisses, "I love you so fucking much, princess. Got no idea how lucky I got."

"How lucky did get I you mean." I say under my breath so he wouldn't hear.

Harry Styles

Catherine had to do something at school tonight , so I asked Louis to hang with me since Thea decided to go visit her aunt tonight. She said that her aunt would love for me to be there but she needs to be alone with her aunt too, you can tell she's getting worse by the day and Thea doesn't see it. Her siblings see it and talked to me about it, they also have a sneaking suspicion that their dad is only sticking around for the money. 

"So you tell her ?" Lou asks as he hands me a beer and sits down next to me on the couch. "About Genny, yeah." I say as he turns on the t.v.

I open my beer and chug half of it, "Well it's a start. How she take it?" he asks while putting on the office. "She was an angel about it, per usual . She said we all have our pasts we can't control, including her own." I fill him in, "Shit , man." he takes a swig of his beer, "I knew she wouldn't go ballistic or anything because that girl hates confrontation , even though she gets into a lot but she took it better than I thought she would. " he shakes his head and turns to look at me.

"Me too. I thought she would be like every other girl and be like ' you lied about sleeping with someone.' Even though it was years ago." I rest my head on the back of the couch, "Dude, Thea is far from every other girl. And I love the girl, I do. I've spent a lot of time with her between you and Cat but she has a worst past then you." he says

"She doesn't deserve it." I rub my eyes and sit up and finish off my beer, "No one deserves what happened to her ,Harry," he sounds agitated. "Well I didn't mean that, I know she didn't deserve  that and the aftermath of it at all but what I meant was she doesn't deserve what I brought along into her life. "I explain and he sighs. 

"Haz. I'm quoting Miss. Hayden herself when she says that we can't control our past. No matter how much we may want to change it , we can't. Even if she let the whole Genevieve thing slide , she's never going to forgive you for telling her everything else."

"I know, that's why I don't want to tell her Lou. She's everything, I've never been so in love with someone before even though she is my first love .It doesn't feel like it could get better than this. I can't ruin it and by telling her this , I know for a fact I will loose her and it will all feel like a fucking fever dream." I stress

"Yeah, I know. But Harry, not telling her is ten times worse. You took the fist step today and told her about Genevieve . You're gonna have to tell her the rest soon before someone slips up with Genny staying at yours cousins ." he leans back.

"You think she would say something ?" I panic, "I wouldn't put it past her, from what you told me she's a stone cold bitch. She's most likely back in England because she had no other choice but Regina's and Joeys's." he's right, she's gonna say something. 

"Fuck, Lou"

~HIIII everyone, I know I'm not elaborating on what Harry's not telling Thea but that's the point. Hopefully you got a hint last chapter. Vote and Comment !!

Oh, and I fucking love Zayn's new album :)