HEARTLESS //HS

Chapter 57

'But don't tell me you're sorry, boy
Feel sorry for yourself
'Cause someday, I'll be everything to somebody else
And they'll think that I am so exciting
And you'll be the one who's crying'

~enough for you~ Olivia Rodrigo

~~ I listened to it on repeat for this chapter

Thea Hayden

I rolled over my side to expect to have Harry's body beneath mine but I was met with a cold bed making me open my eyes in confusion . I turned my head to look at the clock that read,' 10:48'. I yawned and stretched myself out in the bed that felt like home.

After many internal arguments with myself and several protests from my muscles , I managed to get up and find one of Harry's shirts and boxers on the bed and slipped them on since I slept completely naked.

I made my best attempt to walk steadily to the door and open it. Thankfully, I did without any fault and walked out to see Louis sitting at his table with Niall and Liam with worrisome looks on their faces.

"Morning, guys." I said as I limped towards them preparing myself for them to tease me over the fact I fucked Harry last night and my clothes were still all over the place. I huffed and picked up my tights that were next to Louis foot and threw them down the hall and went to the coffee pot with hot coffee , thank god.

I took out a blue mug and poured me some and hobbled over to the fridge to get the milk and sugar that sat next to it and went back to put some in the coffee I desperately needed.

At some point during the night I had felt Harry come back to bed and hug me against his chest and kiss my temple and whisper something but I could barely hear him because of my sleeping state.

I blew on the hot coffee and sat down across from Louis and took a sip from the hot liquid. I sniffled and looked around to see Niall and Liam glancing at me with looks of guilt on their faces. "Okay, is it really that bad that I slept with Harry?" I tried to joke and laughed but they didn't budge.

I huffed and began to become a bit irritated that they weren't saying anything. My hands were warm against the mug as Louis didn't even dare to look at me which made me tinge.

Do they really think that bad of me ? Should I have not slept with him?

"Well since your all so quiet , I'll talk." I said to them thinking they would say something then but nothing not even a sneeze.

"I-I want to get back together with Harry." I admitted to them feeling proud of myself for saying it and wanting it like nothing I've ever felt before. "I guess coming here last night opened my eyes a bit. I missed him a lot and I want to give him another chance because , I love him you know?" I confessed to them.

I didn't even get a glance out of them, they were like statues. I was a little hurt by it but I couldn't control anything. I thought that the guys and I had gotten close with the time I was with Harry and not with him and that they would be happy for me like I'm always happy for them when they tell me stuff like this.

"I don't know how long it will take for us to back to normal but I really want to try because I can't see myself with anyone else. I mean, fuck , I went on that date and I went into a medically induced coma. If that's not the universe screaming at me I don't know what is." I rambled on as my eyes went from boy to boy.

I noticed that Louis was starring at his phone with his eyes locked on something. I wondered if it was Cat or something. "I was thinking that maybe we could go on a date with Sloan and you, Niall to ease back into things." I tried to meet his eyes but they snapped up and I saw that they were bloodshot .