Uncontrollable(HUGE REMAKE)

Chapter 13

Is he insane!? Military?
"Why Military!? I am a girl!" I demanded.
"Even if you're girl, it doesn't mean you can't go to Military," Dr. Clarkson claimed.
"No. You guys are not putting me into Military," I said.
"Honey, we have no choice. I think they can teach you how to protect yourself. Our lives will probably change if you won't use your powers," my dad said.
"But dad, I can't control it. Even if I don't want to use it, it keeps going out," I said, shaking my head. "Dad, why don't I just go somewhere else. Where no one will see me. I want to end this. I don't want you guys to put in trouble that I've done," I suggest. My eyes is blur. I don't want to leave, but I think that would be the right thing to do.
"You're not going anywhere," my dad shouted. I know he's preventing himself not to cry.
"But we have no choice. I have to go. Even if it's hard, I really have to," I said. My tears are silently going down as I speak.
"Kezia, the only thing you can do to prevent yourself from letting your powers out is that you have to be calm all the time, that's it. Going to Military is the best way to make you feel calm in all the situations you'll have. They can teach you how to prevent from freaking out and from being furious," Dr. Clarkson explained. "Promise me, after Senior year, you are going to the Military," my dad asked me.
"Okay," I said.
"Promise me, Kezia."
"I promise."
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I don't want to be ruled by someone, but I have no choice. They know what to do, and I have to go with it. Every night I go to sleep, the thought of being killed is crossing onto my mind. It makes me feel sick. I'm divergent, and I don't belong in this world. Anytime soon, I'll be killed. I wonder how the great assassin survived every night of thinking that he will be killed soon. If it's hard for me, of course it's more harder for him. He don't talk to anybody, he don't know someone to give him an idea for how to live your normal life.

3 weeks later, my wound was already healed while my brother Hugo is waiting for him to go back at school because he missed a lot of task at school and being a famous graphic designer. Me and my dad decided to use my power to make Hugo forget the moment when I saved him so we can still keep our secret, and I'm glad it worked. I'm at my roof now, and it's 7:30 in the evening. It's pretty cold outside, it's 27 Fahrenheit. I have my hot cocoa at my side, and a big blanket to cover my back. I'm wearing my blue winter jacket too, and also my white fuzzy knit cap. The moon is bright and the stars are uncountable. I don't care if I'll sleep very late because we don't have school tomorrow. We're having our winter break. I remember what my dad said when I first met the great assassin. He told me that the great assassin is finding more Uncontrollable people to fight for their freedoms. I wonder if I'll join him. What would be the plans that we will do? A lot of people thinks that he's creepy, but I don't. I can feel that he have something bright inside of him. I remember when he saved me. I remember his brown eyes shimmers when he's looking at me, as if he's so happy to be with somebody. The thoughts about him makes me want to see him again, but I think I won't have the chance to see him again. He's hiding and he doesn't want anybody to see him. Maybe the guy in the motorcycle that night was a police, or a robot that is hunting him down. While my mind is turning, I heard a voice from my back.
"Do you know that overthinking can kill you?" He said. I turned around, and saw this guy sitting at the edge of my rooftop. It's him, the great assassin.
"It's you," I said, with a shock face. Suddenly, my gut feels weird. He wears the same thing, but he have his new bandana. I wonder how many pairs of the same design of clothes does he have. He looked at me and sat down in front of me.
"Yes," he said. His eyes is on mine. His lips is still glossy and red.
"What are you doing here?" I asked. He looked away, and he lay down to look at the stars. My gaze followed him.
"I want to be with someone," he said, breathing heavily.
"Who's that someone?" I asked. I already know who, because I'm already with him.
"Obviously, you."
"Why me?" My eyes got wide. He sat down again, then he face me. His eyes wanders around my face. I keep following his eyes, knowing that this won't be happening again so I have to go with it.
"I don't know," he said with a calm voice. He looked away to see the bright stars on our front.
"See that star? That one is like me. Wanna know why?" He said. He's still looking at the bright stars. I realize that the star that he's pointing is very far away from the other stars, but the shine of it is really bright.
"Why?" I said, looking at him. I didn't look away. I'm waiting for him to look at me back.
"That star is very noticeable because it's very different and bright. The reason why that star is like me is that," finally, he looked at me. Our face is like a foot away. I can feel my pulse is pacing. "I'm very different from everybody. I'm not normal, that's the reason why I have to hide because I'm very noticeable," he said, still looking into my eyes.
"I don't care," I said.
"You're not afraid of me?"
"Why would I? You're a nice guy. You saved me," I said then smile at him. He smile back, but a mock smile.
"I killed someone," he said with a calm voice.
"I know you didn't mean to kill somebody. You're fear controlled you. You were forced to kill that person," I explained. "I also know that you are the Great Assassin," I added. His gaze is still on mine. We're looking at each other, and his look and his warmness making me feel that I'm safe and no one can hurt me because he's here with me.
"I have a name," he said.
"Tell me," I went closer to his face. He's looking down at my lips. He's probably planning to kiss me.
"I'm not allowed to tell you," he said. His face is serious and calm.
"Why not? Because you're afraid?" I gave a mock smile at him, then he giggles.
"I'm not afraid. I just don't want to put you in trouble," he said. "Why are you getting closer?" He added. My cheek feels hot, and I probably turning red. This is really awkward. I looked away without saying anything, but then he holds my cheek to keep looking at him.
"Please don't look away," he pleaded. I'm speechless. I'm locked in his eyes. I can't move my eyes, I can't moved my body. I'm trapped, a very sweet trapped.
"Can I kiss you?" He asked. He wraps his arms around me. I can feel the moon shines really bright at the velvet sky. I felt his palm cup my cheek while his thumb moves back and forth like a soft caress across my chin. I suddenly felt his warm lips brush against mine. His strong arms urge me to get close to him, and it just feels right. This is my first time doing this, and I don't know how long it will last. I wish we could stay like this forever, but then when we heard the sound of a gun, he suddenly wraps his arms around me very tight. I can feel his warm body against mine. His heartbeat goes faster and his still embracing me hard, as if he's my knight and he's very ready to protect me. I wonder where's that sound came from.
"I have to go," he said. He ran across the roof. He's about to run but I stand up and called him.
"Wait!" I said.
"What? You have to go. Don't tell anyone you saw me," he said.
"But I have to ask you something first," I said. I breath heavily, and I think I'm going to stutter.
"Pro..promise me yo..you w...will show u..up aga..again, and, you..you'll b..be safe, please?" I pleaded. He looked at me and smiled at me.
"Tell me or not, I am gonna find you and will show up. I'll be careful, don't worry. Thank you for the memory," he said, then he went away. I can feel my lips is spreading to smile. That moment was really memorable. His face is on my mind. I went into my room to plan to go to sleep, but I can't sleep because I still remember that kiss. I'm smiling for no reason, and I want to scream so loud. I can't forget his glimmering brown eyes looking at me. He made me feel that I was in a safe and very peaceful place. I want to feel that again, I need to.