Aperture

First Snowfall

The first snowfall of every year normally just passes by for me. I felt like there is no need to really celebrate something about it. It's reserved for lovers, and family. Since I am alone, my family is in Daegu, and I don't even have someone with me for the longest time, I spend it mostly alone.

But I know this year is special. I have someone with me, and who knows he might be thinking the same thing too. I'm kind of excited how this night will turn out, especially when he told me he will wait for me.

'Yejinssi!' Mujin was calling me as I finished talking to Bin. I said goodbye and reminded him that I love him, as always. I never knew how it felt before, but because of him, I am now a believer in love. Much as I had always portrayed these roles in my movies, I truly never felt that feeling, and I just didn't know where I got all those energy to release those emotions.

It was with him that I could really say that yes, the Nation's First Love is truly in love.

'Yes? Are we going to take the scene now?' I asked her. 'Where is Kim Oppa?'

'Oh he said he is going somewhere important. I think he's coming back now,' she said as she fixed my wardrobe.

The scene for today required me to be outside, and worse, I had to act with Bidam. I would have wanted to back-out of the production but then I didn't want to sacrifice the story. I was being the professional actress that I am, but then the jerk out of him always, always takes precedence.

'Yejinssi, the scene for today is when you meet him and he is asking you out once more, but then because you can't you avoided but he kisses you,' the director said. I nodded but then behind my mind, there was a huge cloud of doubt if he would still act that way.

I was actually afraid if he would do something else, but then the production staff were all there so I think I am safe. I took a deep breath as I waited for him to get this scene over and done with.

He came and I think he was prepared so the director called in to shoot the scene. As soon as he called 'ACTION', I delivered my lines with ease, timing and precision. But then when the kissing scene took place, he did the unthinkable.

He prolonged the kiss that I had to shout and push him. I was about to say something to the director but then he justified that it was necessary for the scene. The director agreed with him, but even though he won, at least we wouldn't have to take another shot of it. We proceeded to the next scene. But I must admit that my mind had been running haywire already.

I had to be my best self still and go on with the filming. Good thing we were done in three hours, at least with the scene that he is involved.

'Yejinssi, please wait,' he called from behind as I headed to my stylist's tent. I stopped and turned to look at him.

'What was that earlier?' I asked casually but I know I shot daggers at him already.

'It was needed in the scene, Yejinssi. You know that as an actor,' he replied. ''Why? Are you so affected by your relationship with that man that you won't allow me or anyone to kiss you anymore?' he continued.

How can this man be cunning?

'Anyway, I only wanted to say thank you for today,' he said and walked away. I went directly to the Mujin's tent and sat down, crushing my weight on the artist's chair.

'Yejinssi?' she asked, and she could see tears brimming in my eyes.

'Just give me a minute, unnie,' I said, then she left me. I could not place my emotions and I truly wanted to end this night and go home. I am not feeling good. But then I had to finish, so I stayed. Mujin came back after a minute and began to retouch my makeup. I kept silent the whole time.