Aperture

Moonlight Kiss

'Eon Jin, will you marry me?'

Nerve-wracking.

If I was to describe what I felt when I knelt in front of her and waited for her answer to my question, it was the perfect word. There were a lot of thoughts running through my mind and clearly, one of them was what if she doesn't accept it? What if she would tell me to wait?

But then again, I knew that if it should happen, I have to understand that it could be because of the things that were in the past. I could only hold my breath, anticipating what was to come and how she would tell me if it's a yes or no.

One. Two. Three. More seconds came by, and it turned to a full minute. The minute turned into two, and then she cleared her throat. I was on high alert, all senses were active, as I waited for the verdict.

My confidence went down the drain when she began to say something.

'Bin. I don't know what made me believe in everything you told me. I don't know what happened that I followed my gut and looked for you. I know I shouldn't have, but then how would I know my feelings for you when I didn't?' she said.

No, Bin. You have a big chance. C'mon man, don't give up just yet. Until she says so.

'But I realized that if I didn't, I wouldn't really know what you were up to. If I didn't, I wouldn't know how capable I was to let go of my fame and go to places where I looked for the one who made me happy. And in reality, it did. It made me happy being away from the public eye, living like a normal person, living like an ordinary woman. Anna Scott said, 'I am just a girl, standing in front of a boy, asking him to love her.'

I am not Anna Scott, Bin. I won't ask you to marry me even if my heart really wanted to do so. Because I believe it should come from you and not me. I stopped looking for you, thinking that you would find me like how it happened in France. I stopped looking for you because I don't have to seek love anymore. It has found me, and I know it will find me again,' she continued, and I could see her eyes glimmer once more with tears. I know I had those too, because it became cloudy as I looked at her. I smiled at her, ready to hear what she was about to say in continuation.

'Can you ask me once more, Bin?' she asked. I smiled and I did what she asked me to do.

'Will you marry me?'

'Yes.'

Although I had anticipated it when she told me to ask her once more, it surely felt different when I heard her answer. I felt like a thousand tons of doubt taken away from my heart, and was replaced with a lot of happiness, surging with happiness that I couldn't even begin to move to slide the ring on her finger. I froze, and I felt like a crazy man staring and smiling at her under that dim, moonlit night.

'Hey, what are you doing?' she asked, on the verge of laughing through the tears. But she gave in to her laughter. That laugh that was music to my ears. I have always missed the sound of that.

I must have looked crazy, but it was a good thing she laughed because I found the courage to do what I need to do. I slid the ring on her finger, and just like the first time she brought me here, I kissed her hand. I looked at her and slowly brought my lips closer to her, claiming her as if it was the most precious thing in this world, pouring all the love that I have deep within me in that kiss under the moonlight. She responded to my kisses, and as I felt her hand behind my neck, I know I found the right kind of love. 

Yejin had always been my stronghold, and if not for her I wouldn't know where I am going. My dreams started to become a reality the moment I met her, because I believed that nothing is impossible if I only work at it. Just like how she did with her career, and knowing how she is, I know that this relationship that we are nurturing, and soon will be building together, is something that she has considered very deeply. I know I am in for the long run, because my fiance is not just anyone. She is Son Ye Jin, and she is one of the people I know who will work hard to achieve everything she ever dreamed of.