Alive Again (Cielois)

I've Been Hit! (20)

.:TimeSkip: A Week (Ciel is at work again and Claude and Ally decided to have another date c:):.

Alois' P.O.V.

I sighed and walked into the house. Everyone seemed to be busy with themselves, so I kind of got lonely. There was nothing to do, no one to talk to.
Even Cheerio wasn't in the mood to play.

I bit my lip and walked to Ciel and I's room. I grabbed a random pair of sweatpants and a shirt with Santa Claus on it.((a/n: Idk xD))
I walked into our private bathroom and turned the shower on. The water was not warm, not freezing. Just to kind of refresh me since it was so damn hot outside.
I let the water wash down my body. With my head hanging low, I stood there, thinking to myself.

Lately, things between Ciel and I were not like they used to be. Don't get me wrong, I loved the sex we had, I know he did too. I actually loved Ciel a lot, but he didn't seem to feel the same.
It made my chest hurt. I wanted to cry, to just lay on the ground and give up.
Even our kids were growing up pretty damn fast, getting into relationships and things like that. They were drifting away from my arms.

I sat on the tiled ground of the shower and hugged my knees. The water trickled down my face, down my legs and arms. I reached one hand to my back and touched the scar that Ciel left me with.

'Slut.'

Maybe I am a slut. Everyone seems to call me it. They think, since I had sex with someone older than me as a fourteen year old, that I'm a little slut. They think it's okay to say things like that about me. It really fucking hurts.

I didn't even realize I was crying until one of many sobs left my mouth.

"Everything was so amazing... Why does it seem to be falling apart?" I cried, my voice shaking as I trembled.
Maybe it's just my own fault. I was born with the worst luck, I guess.
It's a damn curse.
I put my hands over my eyes and let all of my emotions out. I'd bottled them up for so long, kept my questions to myself. I tried to stay happy, but unfortunately Alois Trancy can't have happiness.

I miss Hannah. Although I was so mean to her, I hit her, called her names, she still loved me through it all. But she's dead now.

Just like I am.

Alloize's P.O.V.

Claude was an amazing swimmer! He was just as good as my brother.
Claude and I played all kinds of pool games, fought over pool noodles.
I had a really nice time!
When we were done swimming, we laid on the concrete surrounding the pool to dry off.
"Claude, thanks for making this day so awesome."
"No problem," He replied."And thank you for inviting me here."
I smiled and we sat in a peaceful silence.
After about ten minutes, Claude turned to me.
"Um, Al? Can I ask you something?"
"Of course," I murmured, looking into his golden eyes.
"I know this may be a touchy subject, but what happened to your arm?" He gently asked. I giggled.
"There's nothing touchy about it!" I chuckled."I was just being an idiot as a kid and I stuck my arm out the window of a bus. We drove by a stop sign and the speed of the bus caused the sign to take my arm right off."
"Wow." Claude commented.
"Yeah. I didn't even cry!" I proudly boasted. Claude chuckled and grabbed my metal hand, tangling our fingers together.
"Al, you know I really like you right?"
I smiled and shyly nodded."Yes. I like you too, Lil Claude."
"I am not little! You're the little one, kid!"

Alois' P.O.V.

After a long, thoughtful shower, I opened the sliding door and reached out for my towel. I dried my hair, then wrapped it around my waist.
After that, I grabbed my clothes and took them back to the bedroom, where I changed into them.

"Dad?"
It was my son.
"Come in, sweetheart." I sighed, plopping down on me and my boyfriend's king sized bed. My son walked in, his hair wet, and he was only wearing basketball shorts. He sat in bed next to me.
"I need to tell you something."
"Yes?"
"Sebastian and I.. we're sort of together." Sebastin hesitantly said.
"I know." A small smile formed on my face."I saw how close you guys were standing at the carnival."
Sebastin blushed."Are you mad?"
"No, but Ciel might be. Why don't you wait to tell him...?" I suggested. My son nodded.
"Yeah, he'll throw a temper tantrum."
I giggled.
"But there's one more thing."
"Hm?"
"We... had sex." He looked at me, his face kind of red. I frowned.
"Pardon?"
"We.. yanno,"
"What." I spat. He winced."You're fucking 14! What the hell Sebastin?!"
"I'm sorry! We just really like each other..! He wanted to take things to the next level!"
"You're underage! That's illegal!!" I stood up, my face growing hot due to anger.
"...I'm.. sorry.." He looked down. I softened. I probably would have done the same if Ciel and I were together at that age..
Thinking about Ciel made my chest hurt...
"No.. It's okay. You really love him, right?"
"I do. With him, I feel really good. Better than I have, in a long time, actually." He smiled and looked down.
"As long as your happy. But I don't want you guys doing it all the time, even if you do love each other. Okay?" I sat down again and pulled my son into an embrace and kissed the crown of his head.
"Dad, are you okay?"
I pulled away, startled by the question."Of course I am." I chuckled nervously.
"I can see the dullness in your eyes... Whats bothering you?"
"Ahem, um, nothing, why don't you go get me something to eat, I'm rather hungry!" I quickly said, pushing him out the door.
"...Fine, but when I get back, you're telling me what's wrong!" He shouted, then I heard him walk down the hall to the kitchen.
I sighed, putting my head in my hands and mumbling to myself.
I sat there for about ten minutes until Sebastin came back with a plate of pizza rolls.
"Here," He handed them to me."They aren't hot anymore, I let them cool."
I nodded and slowly ate my pizza rolls. My son sat next to me.
"Now, spill the beans," Sebastin crossed his arms against his chest and lifted his chin a bit. I looked down.
"I feel like me and your dad are drifting apart..." I whispered, shoving a pizza roll into my mouth.
"What?!"
"Lately, he's just been a bit.. out of it, I guess." I said, mouth still full.
"How can I help?!"
"There's really no way to fix it.." I replied, my voice flat. I shoved another pizza roll in my mouth.
"I can try!" Sebastin exclaimed."Tell me what I can do!"
I shrugged."If I really love him, I've gotta let him go, I guess.."
Sebastin frowned and looked down."But.. our family..!"
"..."
He sniffled and left the room, and I ate another pizza roll.

.:TimeSkip:.

I hadn't left my room for the day, and it was now dark outside. I laid there, tangled in the blankets on Ciel and I's bed. Every now and then I would cry, other times, I'd just look at nothing for the longest.
"Alois?" I heard Ciel question softly.
"Yes.."
He flicked the light on."Hey, you okay?"
"...No.."
He crawled in bed next to me."Whats wrong?"
"Ciel, have you moved on? Are you drifting away from me...?" I asked, tears threatening to fall. Ciel looked at me, confused.
"Actually... Yes." Ciel looked down.
I sobbed."Fine. I'm leaving."
"Wait,"
I sat up and left the room, grabbing a pair of shoes and putting them on my feet on my way outside. The tears wouldn't stop falling.

I walked all the way to a liquor store in town. I booth lots of bottles of the alcohol, then went to a park. It was at least eleven at night, so no one was there. I sat on a bench where I drank until every bottle was empty, and believe me, I was gone.
I stood up, pounding my balled up fist against the slide at the park.
"FUCK YOU, CIEL! AFTER ALL THESE YEARS, YOU DECIDE TO ACT THIS WAY?!" I screeched.
I left the park, leaving all of my empty bottles there.

There was a very busy street that was across from it, and like an idiot, I walked across it while cars zoomed by. I didn't pay attention, and beforeI knew it, I felt a huge force against my side, not causing pain, just knocking me into a deep, dark sleep.