I will love again

Part 20 - Shame and Suspicion

A/N: Just a little question. I've been reading a short note from the author in most stories, though I try to keep it mainly to just the story. If you like me to say a few words in the chapters, just tell me, otherwise I keep to the action... :-D

She felt like that for another two days, until Friday afternoon, when her nausea was suddenly gone and she felt a lot better. Gabriel, who had spend every minute caring for her over those days, noticed it only a moment after she did herself, when he blurted out:

"That's the first time since I don't know when, that your face got a little colour back. Are you feeling better?"

Nathalie nodded with a beaming smile.

"I feel much better, I feel like going out and run and jump....., don't worry I won't try, I am fully aware that I barely can stand......, but for the first time in forever I am feeling good!", she exclaimed.

Gabriel smiled back at her, then he pulled her close and kissed the top of her head.

"I am so glad, you're finally getting better. Now you can maybe tell me the things you kept from me! And try to take your vitamins again. If you tell me, where to find them, I will get them for you."

"I would rather wait another day, even if the doctor said, they're important. It won't be good for anything, if I spat them out again, right?", the female argued.

"Why don't you just tell me, what exactly is going on? Is it something serious? Your health was improving very well and then all of a sudden, this happens. I mean, I knew you had still issues with your respiration, when you were excited or got out of breath, but this? If you won't talk to me, will you at least see or call your doctor and tell him? I am still very worried, my dear. And I won't leave that room before you either tell me everything or promise to call him first thing Monday morning!", Gabriel demanded angrily from her.

Nathalie sighed and agreed. "I will call him, on Monday, but under the condition that you'll stop bothering me about that issue, alright?"

"As long as you are feeling alright, I won't bother you! I swear to you!" He just gave in, knowing that there was no use in arguing with her anyway.

Nathalie had but one problem now, she needed a tiny bit of privacy, just a moment, when she would not be observed, to just breathe freely for a moment. And to attend to a couple of things she didn't want him to see, like shaving, waxing, peeling and so on. It had been a while, even before she felt so bad, and now she really was ashamed, that he had possibly seen any of that. So she was feverishly searching for anything to distract him and make him leave for a moment without returning while she was doing all that stuff.

Then there was still the issue of getting into the shower on her own, but she would manage that somehow.

And she wanted to take her vitamins without him noticing, that she did, so she could find out if that was part of her nausea problem.

Gabriel saw her inner turmoil but he was still worried, which put him into a dilemma. On the one hand he wanted to stay with her, watch over her on the other hand, he knew she would only become more distant if he cornered her like this. He decided to ask her directly, so he sat on the mattress, one foot still on the ground, his front turned to face the assistant. He placed a hand on her leg, just a little above her knee and looked into her eyes as he uttered:

"Would you like to tell me, what's bothering you right now? I can see, that something's up."

Nathalie looked guilty, responding: "It's just, I....really.....would like to do.......some.....more private bathroom things......and I would rather do that.... when I'm....alone."