the time I have left [bakudeku]

Ⓒⓗⓐⓟⓣⓔⓡ ⑥: She knows...

𝙸𝚣𝚞𝚔𝚞'𝚜 𝚙𝚘𝚟

There are more people that know about my situation then I like. I can't let anyone else find out. kacchan, iida, the doctors, all might, and now my mom. It's quite. why isn't she doing anything?  why is she just sitting there like that. I could tell she's crying . 

"why?... Dammit izuku why are you trying to give me a heart attack? it's never funny to joke about death, especially about your own.... you...you tell me right now that your lying...." 

she doesn't believe me... how do I make her understand? I could call the hospital and ask about my condition. and make sure my mom can hear. that's it that's what i'll do.

"i'm not lying but if you want proof then I'll call the hospital." 

I grabbed my phone from my pocket. I called the hospital. my mother did nothing but sit next to me. I could feel her anxiety. It's making me nervous. I... why? I I need to make sure she know's i'm fine with what's going to happen. Yes I am scared but I need her to think that I'm happy about how my life has been. the phone rung two times before a lady answered. 

"hello? how may I assist you?" 

I took the phone away from my ear and put it on speaker. I recognize her voice. she's the doctor I begged to keep my secret. 

"hello this is Izuku midoriya I was recently In the hospital under your care. I'm calling to ask about my condition... and time I have left. I've lost track."

it was quite for a second before she spoke up again. 

"yes. your the poor boy that was hit with that horrible quirk. give me a second i'll check your files."

I turned to my mom who had tears in her eyes. I smiled at her and she gripped her skirt with her fist. 

"ah yes. Izuku midoriya. Ummm.... unfortunately you have about thirteen days left....well before you...um y'know die. anyways what we've learned about the quirk still hasn't changed were so very sorry that we can't help save you. were still trying to find some way to help you. we won't stop trying either. we have scientist everywhere looking into this for you." 

I looked over at my mother who was looking at me. tears streaming down her face. I could tell she was choking back her sobs. I got up and put my phone up to my ear taking it off of speaker. 

"yes thank you. I appreciate all that you have and are doing for me. Ok bye." 

I hung up and sighed. I turned around and felt my mom slam into me. 

"Izuku... Why you-you don't deserve to die.... your my little boy... your way to young to die. and did she say thirteen days left? how come you never....never told me.... damnit.... izuku.... I'm your mother.... you.... you should've told me...so...sooner..." 

she said sobbing throughout her words. I turned towards her and smiled. 

"mom it's ok. I'm ok. I'm sure you'll be just fine when I am gone. but I'm still here now so why don't we spend some time together this weekend? we can do whatever you want mom. we can take pictures so you could have them when I'm gone." 

I felt my mom hug me tighter. I need to stay strong. I rested my head on her's. I need to make sure she doesn't see me cry or in pain. the doctor's said that I would start to lose motion in my legs and arms. This being due to the quirk eating away at my muscles. right now I feel fine, Just a little tingle in my arms. they also said that when It starts attacking my organs and my vital point's It'll be painful and that if its to much that I could go to them for pain medication. They even said that if it was really bad that they could.... they could end me sooner... but I won't let that happen. because I would rather live and suffer then die and make my mom and friend suffer sooner.  my mom began sobbing into my chest. I looked over at the clock. If I don't leave now i'll be late for class. 

"mom i've got to go or i'll be late for class." 

I felt her let go of me. 

"you don't have to go..... go to school I mean"

I looked at her a bit confused. 

"my friend's or teacher's don't know so I can't just skip and plus kacchan would get worried If I didn't show up."

I heard her sigh. 

"sometimes you need to be more selfish, your always worried about others..." 

I looked at her and smiled. I turned around and ran out of my house. I didn't stop running. not even when I felt some tears spill from my eyes. my mom. she- I broke her heart. she was so sad. I shouldn't have told her. but I know that what I did was right. it was for the best. I ran and ran. and then I bumped into someone. 

"hey watch it...." 

I looked up quickly wiping my eyes. It's kacchan. We were in the hallway of school.

"oh hey deku. I'm sorry. hey umm I have a question." 

kacchan said. I looked over at him and he continued to walk. I followed behind him.

"have you told anyone else? because four eyes seems to be more mopey then usually. And what would you like to do today?" 

I looked around. and then turned towards him. I looked forward not once stopping. 

"yeah three other people know...and for your other question..."

I looked down at my hands and felt slight pain throughout my arm. my fingers are starting to tingle and my hand feels weird. 

"who know's? and my other question, do you or do you not?" 

I looked over at him and smiled. 

"iida knows. he heard me mumbling about it. Actually about things I want to do before I die. I told all might this morning and returned his power. so once again i'm quirkless... useless once again. and my mother also forced me to tell her what was wrong. " 

I could feel him glare at me. 

"stupid deku your not useless... anyways what about my second question?" 

 I looked down at my hands and thought. And then it hit me. 

"teach me how to cook kacchan!! that way we could spend time together and the class could eat some yummy food made by the both of us!!" 

I felt him stare at me me in confusion. 

"Why? shouldn't you do something that you want to do? instead of thinking of others." 

I looked over at him and then down ant my arms. 

" I do want to learn how to cook. at least while I still can use my arms. I'm starting to lose feeling in them kacchan. I have a feeling that they won't work tomorrow. before you ask yes It's form the quirk its eating at my muscles  and you need your muscles to move your arms. It kind of hurts right now." 

I felt kacchan staring at my hands. 

"yeah ok deku.... I'll teach you"