Maybe one day? - Spencer Reid x Reader

Chapter 36.

"I'm waiting for an answer." His harsh voice brings you back to reality.

"Wait, what the fuck. How do you have the nerve to talk to me like that?" Your voice raises and Mira looks at you, her brows are raised and she's whispering to you to tell her what he wants.

"I was worried. You didn't answer me for ages."

"Jeez I wonder why Spence, maybe because less than 24 hours ago you dumped me? Am I not allowed some space? I told you I wasn't ready for friends." Your sadness has disappeared now and all that's left is rage, boiling hot rage and unfortunately the man you love is the target of your words.

"Y/N. I still worry and love you."

"You gonna love me from afar? There's no point you telling me this right now, you can't dump me and then ring me saying you love me. It's confusing and quite frankly I don't want to hear it." Your voice raises more and you can hear Spencer sigh on the other end.

"You know why I did that."

"Oh grow up Spencer, you could have easily told Hotch, you pussied out of it, of us! You decided then not to care enough to come clean. I know damn well that coming clean would have better than this. You made your bed, you lie in it. Don't ring me again tonight." You shout back at him and hang the phone up but as soon as you do regret hits you like a truck and all you can think about is how you've upset him. That isn't what you wanted.

"Hey, please don't cry." Mira appears right next to you and is holding you close to her chest, your head is full of Spencer and nothing else right now. You mentally kick yourself for putting yourself in this position, one thing you always told yourself was to keep your work and personal life separate but then the BAU came into your life. You welcomed all parts of the BAU into your life, your personal life which you always strived to keep separate. You let them into your heart and in doing so, Spencer became a part of your heart.

"I hate him."

"No you really don't." Mira kisses your head and holds you while you say you hate him over and over again. "Come on, we're going for a walk."

"Why?" You ask while pulling away, Mira looks you up and down and sighs slightly. "What is it?"

Her eyes are big, her hands are soft while she holds you and she speaks with a soft voice. "I hate seeing you like this. It'll work out."

"Something tells me it'll work out but I think I'm hoping way too much for the impossible." You wipe your eyes and try to fix the smudged eye liner, luckily you always wore waterproof eye make up so it wasn't too hard to fix. "Actually can we go out? Like out out?"

"Do you think that's a good idea? Are you like healed enough?" Mira asks while gesturing to your body. You shrug.

"Yes I am, I passed their medical tests and I'm not really in much pain anymore." You say while getting off of the bed. "Oh and we've had pre drinks already." You giggle while pulling Mira's hand, she just grins and jumps off.

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It's only around an hour later that you're both at the bar drinking a Cosmo which was a favourite drink of yours. Your brain right now is wanting to rid of all things Spencer and your very clever brain thinks that doing all the things he isn't a fan of will do exactly that, like being reckless. You decided to go all out, a low cut navy dress but it's tight, super tight that the only way to get it off is by unzipping. It has under bust detailing that pushes your boobs higher up. It has a small thigh split, not too extreme like the black one you'd wore on the night out, purely for the reason that your bruises were still visible and you weren't feeling too confident about them, your hair is straight and in a middle part down your face and you've paired the look with navy block open toe heels with a gold detail on the ankle chain.