Maybe one day? - Spencer Reid x Reader

Chapter 34.

"So we're clear Agent Y/L/N?" Strauss looks at you expectedly. You nod while looking up at her. It was you, Hotch and Strauss but god she made you feel nervous.

"One more week." You mutter as you go to stand up. The past week had been you recovering, Spencer had stayed the whole week while Prentiss was checking in on you. Mira kept you sane by sending you memes and funny videos and as a whole it was a chill week, stressful at times but you were recovering well.

"Oh we aren't done yet, Hotch can you get the others please?" You frown as Strauss addresses Hotch, you're unsure of why she's calling the others in but you sit back down and wait for the others to come. You take a sip of your coffee while you wait, the nervousness kicks in but the others walk in. You aren't expected to stand which is good and you hear a ring of 'Ma'ams' as they address Strauss.

"I know you're all busy but there is something that needs to be addressed. Conduct. There has been some cases of misconduct within the FBI, not within the BAU but you must wonder if it's happening elsewhere then it could happen anywhere." Strauss begins, she sits in the chair and looks at everyone one by one.

"Conduct?" JJ speaks up. You all look around at each other.

"Over drinking, acting inappropriate online, while on staff nights out. We've had a few cases of fraternisation as well, while there isn't a formal ban on FBI relationships it does hinder potential." She clasps her hands together as she speaks. "We need to all make sure we remember who we work for." She finishes speaking.

"Of course Ma'am." Hotch responds. She dismisses you all and you walk out onto the floor of the BAU, you walk over to Prentiss who gives you a quick hug.

"You coming back next week?" She asks after she releases you. 

"Yeah, Strauss wants me back working. I'm actually glad she hasn't extended it to another week, I miss work." You chuckle as you say. 

"I knew you would." She giggles back as she sits down on the chair. You notice Spencer walk past you in a hurry.

"Reid, you still wanting to go to the library tonight?" You shout after him but he ignores you, you glance at Emily who frowns. Was this because of Strauss? "I'll be right back Em." You mutter before walking over to the coffee room.

"Reid?" You say as you walk in. He's wearing a black jumper over a white shirt with black trousers and a grey tie. He turns around to you with a frown. "What's wrong?" You start to get a bad feeling.

"I don't know Y/N. We can't talk about this here okay?" His voice is clipped and it hurts you. You know it's because of what Strauss said.

"What's going on?" You whisper as you walk closer to him.

"I need to think. We need to think." His voice is rushed, he runs his hands through his hair while he looks at you with his eyes wide. "About this. Us" He says the last bit in a whisper and you feel your heart start to break.

"Why don't you come to mine after work?" You plead. "We can talk then." You try and keep the tears at bay, you didn't want this conversation at all.

"Okay fine. I'll see you later Y/L/N." It stung to hear him just call you by your last name like this. He walks out of the room without a second glance and your mood drops. You walk out and say bye to the others. Emily asks if anything is wrong and you say no, but right now you just needed to say the truth. You needed someone to offload too and talk too, someone who knows you but instead you go home waiting the 5 hours until he would finish work. You knew what was going to happen.

You go home and you can't help but cry but you tell yourself not to over react yet. It didn't mean the end but you knew the way Spencer was it wasn't going to end well.