Drawn To You

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"I don't understand this!" I say frantically, pressing random buttons on the controller as I play some weird zombie game with Tom. As he comes out of his depressive episode, the one thing he's able to do to distract himself is play video games. So of course being the supportive girlfriend I am I decided to play with him. Except I suck. Bad.
"No!" Tom yells loudly, and the game ends.
"What happened?" I ask.
"You killed me." He states.
"Oops." I laugh and he shakes his head.
It feels good to be spending time with my boyfriend. He's been very distant from me the past couple days which makes no sense because Haz said he's normally clingy when he's like this. Toms been leaving the house to do random errands, constantly wanting to go alone. He just doesn't want me around, which I try not to take to heart because I know it's not him. It's the depression.
"Are you nervous for today?" He asks.
Today is the day my article in the cosmopolitan magazine comes out. I decided to go for it. I put kians name in the article and it's being published this evening. This is quite literally the scariest thing I've ever done, but also the bravest. I can't preach to young women about taking control of their own bodies and holding men accountable if I don't do it as well. I'm proud of myself.
"I'm a little nervous, but also very excited." I say.
"I'm so proud of you."
He connects his lips to mine, and his hands slip underneath my shit, gripping at my skin. He's very handsy today. I straddle his lap, closing the gap between us. He starts to lift my shirt off my body, and I move my arms above my head to finish the task. He throws my shirt to the floor and his lips make their way down to my collar bones, making the marks that he loves to leave on me so much.
This is the first time he's touched me in days.. I needed this reassurance.
I feel him get hard beneath me, and he groans, resting his forehead against mine.
"I'm sorry." He mutters.
"Tommy I want to.." I say.
"Believe me princess, it will happen soon. Just not quite yet." He says and kisses my nose.
I don't know what he's waiting for at this point. We live together, we love each other, we spend practically every second together.. it just doesn't make sense to wait anymore.
"Hey guys- oh my god you're naked!" Haz yells as he walks through the front door.
I quickly jump off Toms lap, grabbing my shirt and slipping it on.
"I wasn't naked you dummy I just didn't have a shirt." I say.
"Why did I think it would be a good idea for you to move in?" He mumbles to himself.
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The three of us walk into the store, and quickly make our way to the magazine section. This is it, my first step into the journalism world.
"I found it!" Haz calls from further down the aisle and we jog over.
He opens the magazine, flipping through the pages until he stops at an article, my name credited at the bottom.
"Oh my god I'm in the cosmopolitan!" I squeal.
"You did it princess." Tom smiles proudly.
"We're buying this and it's going on the fridge." Haz says and I giggle.
We bring the magazine home, and he does just that. Taking the page out and putting it on the fridge like a proud parent.
"Thanks dad!" I tease and he gives me a funny look.
"Never call me that again." He says.
Toms phone dings, and he looks at it, quickly locking the screen and shoving the phone into his back pocket.
"Who's that?" I ask.
"What? Oh it's no one." He shakes his head.
Toms phone has been buzzing like crazy for days now, and he's been acting a bit suspicious. I don't jump to conclusions anymore, because I tend to overreact, but it's weird.
"I'm gonna take a walk." Tom says and I feel a spark of happiness. He hasn't had the motivation to do anything for a week now, this is a big step in getting out of this slump.
"Well I'll come with you-"
"No, I want to go alone." He says and my brows knit together in confusion.
"Oh.. okay." I say.
"I'll be back in a bit." He says, and kisses my cheek before leaving the house.
"Are you guys fighting or something?" Haz asks.
Even he sees that something is wrong! It's not just me.. something is going on with Tom and I'm going to figure out what it is.
"No.. do you think.." I sigh, not even wanting to say it. "Do you think that he could be cheating on me?"
Haz stays quiet, which only heightens my anxiety. I thought he was going to say of course not and reassure me.
"The last time this happened, he spent his recovery period sleeping around more than normal." He says. "He's not in his normal state of mind and he will be looking for a familiar comfort. Which with him..."
"Is sex with random girls.." I finish his sentence.
Oh no.. could he be cheating on me? For all I know he could have had some girl pick him up and they could be screwing in the back seat. I squeeze my eyes shut. Not even wanting to think about him with another girl.
"It's that Magnolia girl.. I just know it." I say.
"Hey, you don't know that. Don't think like that." Haz says and pulls me into a friendly hug.
I let out a shaky breath, already feeling hurt over something that I'm not even sure is true. No.. it couldn't be. Tom loves me and every single time I've suspected something like this I've been wrong. Just because that's what he did in the past doesn't mean that's what he will do now. He has changed.
About an hour later he gets home, and walks straight past Haz and I without a word. I hear the shower start and I bury my head in my hands. This is all just too weird.
"Not even a hello." I say.
"Hold on." He mutters, and gets up from his seat.
I watch as Haz walks down the hallway, and soon comes back, holding Toms phone in his hand.
"You took his phone?!" I whisper yell.
"Well don't you want to know who he's texting?" He asks and I sigh.
"Yeah.."
He unlocks Toms phone, and it slightly bothers me that Haz knows the passcode and I don't. I've never not trusted Tom before. This feels so wrong.
I take notice of how Haz's face drops, and he stares at the screen with disbelief. Oh god.. what did he find..
"I'm gonna fucking kill him." He says plainly.
"What is it?" I ask nervously.
"Are you sure you want to know?" He asks.
"Haz please tell me." I say, my heart pounding inside of my chest.
He sighs, handing me the phone. I hesitantly take it, and look at the screen to read the text. It reads 'I knew you'd come running back.' And it's not from Magnolia..
"Meghan." I breathe out with hurt.
I feel every piece of me break inside. The one person I thought I would never have to worry about or compete with, the one person I thought Tom was done with.. and he slept with her.
I feel tears run down my face, and Haz moves to sit next to me, pulling me into a comforting embrace.
"Hey it's okay.." he tries, but it doesn't help. Because this is not okay. The love of my life, the man I would die for, is cheating on me.
"I love him Haz.. I thought he loved me.." I shake my head.
"He does love you, Eliana. I just- I don't know why he did this.." he sighs.
I don't think I'll ever recover from this.. I don't know if he will ever be able to fix this.. I trusted Tom with every piece of me, and now he's broken that trust.

A/N; ahahah y'all hate me now don't you?🤠